Jason
Member
Hello my is Jason and I haven't posted in awhile because I am back in School and it is intense. The stress of it all has made me desire to look at porn. However, I am committed this time to not look at porn no matter the cost. I think of William's posts here on reboot nation and it keeps me motivated along with Gabe's post's. Though I must say being an adult student in College and working full time is tough and this time in the intensity of it all I am having to tell my brain porn and masturbation are not the ways to solve my stress. It is awesome and humbling to be on a different path then the one I was on formerly which was a silent hell of imprisoned shame and bondage to porn. Though now at times the storms of porn batter and pelt my transplanted (rescued) heart of recovery but I utterly refuse to give my heart and soul to that damn monster anymore. No my heart and will belong to me this time and I am determined to continue to pull myself out of this darkened nightmare into new pristine vistas and sunsets of continued sobriety no matter the cost. I will keep wielding my sword of recovery because my sword is drenched with the blood of the monsters of Porn that continue to assail me but with tears I fight on. Lastly I am so grateful for this Reboot Nation especially with Gabe giving so much of his time to this community. He has made me a better father to my son and a better husband to my wife. Many thanks to everybody on this nation.