Just truckin along

[Jason]

Hello my is Jason and I haven't posted in awhile because I am back in School and it is intense.  The stress of it all has made me desire to look at porn.  However, I am committed this time to not look at porn no matter the cost.  I think of William's posts here on reboot nation and it keeps me motivated along with Gabe's post's.  Though I must say being an adult student in College and working full time is tough and this time in the intensity of it all I am having to tell my brain porn and masturbation are not the ways to solve my stress.  It is awesome and humbling to be on a different path then the one I was on formerly which was a silent hell of imprisoned shame and bondage to porn. Though now at times the storms of porn batter and pelt my transplanted (rescued) heart of recovery but I utterly refuse to give my heart and soul to that damn monster anymore.  No my heart and will belong to me this time and I am determined to continue to pull myself out of this darkened nightmare into new pristine vistas and sunsets of continued sobriety no matter the cost.  I will keep wielding my sword of recovery because my sword is drenched with the blood of the monsters of Porn that continue to assail me but with tears I fight on. Lastly I am so grateful for this Reboot Nation especially with Gabe giving so much of his time to this community.  He has made me a better father to my son and a better husband to my wife.  Many thanks to everybody on this nation. 

 

[neon tiger]

Hey Jason, great to hear from you! You were one of the first people on here that showed me their support when i came her a few weeks back in desperation. It kept me on the path during those first few days of darkness.

I am familiar with how school work while being an adult and handling a job can be a huge trigger- i completed a post graduate degree while immersed on PMO.  Part of me think i would've not had the strength to face this monster while handling all that, but another thinks that it would have all been so much easier.  It is what it is, and i am very thrilled for being exactly where i am today i my recovery.

Best of luck.  Hope you get a mini holiday break from the rat race

 

[Fappy]

Hey jason mate, well done!
Keep going as you are and youll realise a massive change. Your hard schedule is definately a trigger for porn-fapping. Being burnt out from study sure was a trigger for me. Instead of studying i would spend hours fiddling with myself. When exam time came i became very anxious about failing the exam, so anxious the only thing i could do was jerk off behind my exam paper at the back of class. Dont let yourself get to that level!
Keep truckin along mate