bishwadeep
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Lets get this started. I texted a lot of people here....and I have been helped at times.....although most of the times my questions went unanswered. Okay....so this is my story.
I started watching porn in high school and have been masturbating almost regularly watching it. Not only porn...I masturbated watching music videos which had explicit scenes and so on. When i came to college, I had a girlfriend. This was not much of a problem then. All i faced was this:whenever I tried to insert it there....it stopped responding. After some days, she left me(not for this though
)....with time I forgot about it....I thought with time this would mend itself....while continuing to watch porn. Then while in Masters.i.e.now...I have another girlfriend....and this is where it all began.
I realized I have a problem when I could not get it up while making out with my girlfriend. This seemed like an end of the world. On the other hand, she supported me. Anyway, I thought I am impotent. I started searching the internet and then came across PIED. And that led me here. To be true, I thought getting out of this addiction would be easy. But it is not. It has to be tried. Consciously. Three months back when I started it, I relapsed after seven days. Then I failed consistently. Thus, this time I thought of keeping this journal so that I have it at the back of my mind to keep track of it. Its 3 days with no PMO for me now and I intend to complete the 30 days no PMO thing. Lets see!!!
Symptoms right now: (a)I am having this urge right now to masturbate. But I know I wont. People....if you are reading this post....follow this: Whenever u have an urge like this while on the reboot, try jogging in the room. I know that makes one look like a retard(running around in the middle of the night)....but it works for me.
(b)Also...I am going through Flat line...that is your small brother wont respond to anything for days on end and that would depress you and lead you to try masturbating to check. Do not succumb to it! The brain is adjusting now....let it be....You should not think about it in terms of hard ons/day. Think about it in this way: your brain is sex starved and thus it is trying to realize to take things back to normal.
(c)Depression in general. This is also a symptom that comes free with re-booting. It comes from fear mainly. Trust me, even I dont know for 100% whether this would work. But one thing I am certain of....I would be free of Porn addiction which is a good thing in itself.[/size]
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I will post my experience/s at te end of each day. Pray for me and I hope this helps others who are reading my post right now.
[size=12pt]3 days with no PMO: Status right now.....Going through the flatline....lets see what tomorrow brings to me. I will continue posting. Keep in touch.
If any one reads this post....and has any questions....feel free to ask!! I will be more than happy to help!!
I started watching porn in high school and have been masturbating almost regularly watching it. Not only porn...I masturbated watching music videos which had explicit scenes and so on. When i came to college, I had a girlfriend. This was not much of a problem then. All i faced was this:whenever I tried to insert it there....it stopped responding. After some days, she left me(not for this though
)....with time I forgot about it....I thought with time this would mend itself....while continuing to watch porn. Then while in Masters.i.e.now...I have another girlfriend....and this is where it all began.I realized I have a problem when I could not get it up while making out with my girlfriend. This seemed like an end of the world. On the other hand, she supported me. Anyway, I thought I am impotent. I started searching the internet and then came across PIED. And that led me here. To be true, I thought getting out of this addiction would be easy. But it is not. It has to be tried. Consciously. Three months back when I started it, I relapsed after seven days. Then I failed consistently. Thus, this time I thought of keeping this journal so that I have it at the back of my mind to keep track of it. Its 3 days with no PMO for me now and I intend to complete the 30 days no PMO thing. Lets see!!!
Symptoms right now: (a)I am having this urge right now to masturbate. But I know I wont. People....if you are reading this post....follow this: Whenever u have an urge like this while on the reboot, try jogging in the room. I know that makes one look like a retard(running around in the middle of the night)....but it works for me.
(b)Also...I am going through Flat line...that is your small brother wont respond to anything for days on end and that would depress you and lead you to try masturbating to check. Do not succumb to it! The brain is adjusting now....let it be....You should not think about it in terms of hard ons/day. Think about it in this way: your brain is sex starved and thus it is trying to realize to take things back to normal.
(c)Depression in general. This is also a symptom that comes free with re-booting. It comes from fear mainly. Trust me, even I dont know for 100% whether this would work. But one thing I am certain of....I would be free of Porn addiction which is a good thing in itself.[/size]
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I will post my experience/s at te end of each day. Pray for me and I hope this helps others who are reading my post right now.
[size=12pt]3 days with no PMO: Status right now.....Going through the flatline....lets see what tomorrow brings to me. I will continue posting. Keep in touch.
If any one reads this post....and has any questions....feel free to ask!! I will be more than happy to help!!
