I'm on my way

[TallyKnight]

Hi all, I'm a newbie on this website. I'm 35 and have been watching porn since my late teens.  About a  couple of years ago I came to realize that I have a problem with Porn. I didn't want to believe it. But the signs started to appear and it was becoming more and more difficult to ignore. I have been dating my girlfriend for over 6 years now and we are set to get married next year. We've always had a great sex life and in the beginning of our relationship I could watch porn and still have sex with no problems. Now my sex drive comes and goes and at times I'm unable to perform. I was no longer able to have sex and watch porn like I used to and, I'm ashamed to say, that at times I chose porn instead of her to get off.  It wasn't until 2 months ago that I tried my best to stay away from Porn and not masturbate. Three weeks ago I had a relapse. And it was then that I found this website. Been reading a lot about the subject and I'm glad  to see that I'm not the only one who is dealing with this. Right now my sex drive is completely gone and I'm a bit depressed but I'm hoping that will pass. I'm tired of how I'm feeling right now and above all I'm tired of not being able to show affection to the woman I love.  There is a better version of me out there that I want to become. So I'm doing the reboot again and am really trying my best to stick with it. I'm usually a private person but writing about this helps for some reason. Thanks for reading and best of luck to all of you.

 

[savingmysoul]

Welcome to the Nation TallyKnight -

You have taken a good first step to being a better person.

continue to read and learn all you can, have a plan in place now that will help you deal with triggers/urges when the happen upon you - you can't wait until you are faced with them.

Find and fill your life with healthy and positive activities.  It seems like you have something and someone to shoot for -

you have the strength within you, find it and embrace it.

SMS

 

[Fappy]

Well done mate, youve taken this positive first step! You can only recover from now! Stay vigilant against triggers and remember why you are doing this. Your loved one is too important for you to just fap out a dribble of jizz to a skinny crack whore on the internet.