indiana
Member
I first realized I had a problem with porn years ago, compulsivity, escalation, and an inability to stop in spite of the tolls it was taking on my life. I had PIED at times with multiple girlfriends as well as treating women like I would see in porn. I came across yourbrainonporn about four years ago, and finally started getting answers. When I was a kid, there were no resources on pornography-addiction, I thought I was just fucked up and the only one struggling, as I'm sure many others dealing with this addiction felt as well. I've been through reuniting.info message-boards, then got into SAA, then walked away from all recovery and instead felt I would do it on my own with my own combination of mediation, hiking, running, and traveling. Suffice to say, I'm still dealing with this and a couple of days ago I crawled back out of a binge that brought me to rock bottom. I feel so numb and dizzy from falling down and getting back up, only to fall down again. This addiction is ruining my life, and has taken numerous opportunities already. I need to keep fighting and I'm not giving up.
I look forward to using this group as a part of recovery and to getting involved with everyone on here. If anyone I open to an accountability partner, let me know.
I'm scared, because I need this. Any input would be greatly appreciated on my part.
Indiana.
I look forward to using this group as a part of recovery and to getting involved with everyone on here. If anyone I open to an accountability partner, let me know.
I'm scared, because I need this. Any input would be greatly appreciated on my part.
Indiana.