I've been clean for about 5 weeks now and have resisted most urges.
Today was the closest I had come to a relapse but I was able to resist and make it through the urge.
The thing that makes it so darn irresistible to me is that with porn I would be able to see (and trick myself into "experiencing") things that I would never in a thousand years experience unless I made my way into a club or nightlife that was filled with other sex addicts (and even the possibility that I'd find any such club seems very remote).
It almost feels as though I'm missing out on extreme sex experiences (even though I'd never actually have the experience anyway).
Today was the closest I had come to a relapse but I was able to resist and make it through the urge.
The thing that makes it so darn irresistible to me is that with porn I would be able to see (and trick myself into "experiencing") things that I would never in a thousand years experience unless I made my way into a club or nightlife that was filled with other sex addicts (and even the possibility that I'd find any such club seems very remote).
It almost feels as though I'm missing out on extreme sex experiences (even though I'd never actually have the experience anyway).