17 years old addict, trying to reach a spark of hope

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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 12:
Even the smartest guy looked retarded in front of the professor lol, No porn today I just went 7 am - 4 pm out of home, and I just need to study and do homeworks now, I dont even feel like watching a girl with a nice ass if shes passing infront of me, wow.
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 13:
Wow guys I dont believe what I have done lol, I was at the bus and I sat next to a very beautiful girl, I was like.. you got change for 5 dollars? she smiled at me and said yeah, and she game me the change, after some mins I ask for her name and she told me and I said my name and she was like hey nice to meet you, then I left like a boss. I know I will see this girl again but I cant go and ask a number to a random girl at the moment, I just did this to prove myself.

No porn today, Im just tired and hungry, and Im just making homeworks and talking with my university friends, I feel a part is coming back to me each day. I havent felt this since long time ago.
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 14:

Since I started studying again I dont even have the time to breathe, I didnt even watched a single second or porn or bad thoughs
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 16:
I was studying all the day and its almost 12 pm and I just think to go sleep. I feel God is  lending me that spark of hope and now I dont want to lose that light, not anymore. Lets all beat this beast dressed of a beauty called porn, porn sucks, porn is not an option. If God lends me , with humilty I would like to do an intense research about porn in a couple of years and ask my teachers about this trash that is worse that an angus beacon with a Redbull
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 17

No porn today, I had the balls to talk with a girl of my class and we was talking nicely,  Im feeling things I never felt before, its just awesome
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 18:
I had a shit day, I messed up my date with a girl I like so when I arrived home I wanted to watch some porn and jerk off but I said, no I dont want to be a coward anymore, Its time to face the present and the future
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Im being late

Day 21:

I want to watch porn furiously and I was just 2 clicks away to start my porn roller coaster, but Im trying with all my soul to stop this urges
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 22:
On the weekends I have so much struggles, Im bored as fuck and I my brain is tricking me saying "its ok just fap 1 time and thats it" oh man, screw porn, I wont fallback again
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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Day 23 and 24:

I cant believe how fluently and fast I can talk and process problems, I feel this is one of the best options I have taken in my life, today the girls of my class were talking to me and I was talking so fluently I couldnt believe it was myself, after a lot of struggles I feel Im reaching a light of hope, Im very thankful with God about this.

And thanks guys I really appreciate you guys take your time, I wish you all good luck :)
 
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easyboi

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keep it up man - you can do this. I started today and I am 17 too.
I hope I can do this like you :) !

keep going
 
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Tarmala

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Don't worry about relapse! You did well, had you can continu. It's normal, it happen sometime. Focus on the positive, all day you had been without porn.
 
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AlexanderXXVI

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I relapsed terrible, I knew a foreign girl and she was talking to me and I didnt had the balls to reply properly because of my relapse, Im sure if I was with my 30+ days without porn I would talk to her...

So here we go again...
 
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