hershey1989
Member
I've been watching pornography since 12 and it has always depressed me that I have this dark secret eating me inside out. Now at 25, I feel like I can't even stop just because this habit has been cultivated over 13 years (which is a super long time!)
I don't know how on earth to get help. I can't actually reveal this secret to anyone because I come from a society where such things are just not tolerated, almost a taboo to even speak about. That's the reason I found the website yourbrainonporn and this forum was listed on the support page.
I'm also a spiritual person so pornography has created a constant conflict between me and my religious beliefs. It's like I repent and go back and do it over and over again. It's just so frustrating that at times, I've even felt suicidal just coz I haven't been able to set free from this horrible compulsion.
Has anyone of you had a similar experience? If so, it would be great to have an accountability partner on Skype or something (doesn't have to involve talking, just even messaging helps.)
I don't know how on earth to get help. I can't actually reveal this secret to anyone because I come from a society where such things are just not tolerated, almost a taboo to even speak about. That's the reason I found the website yourbrainonporn and this forum was listed on the support page.
I'm also a spiritual person so pornography has created a constant conflict between me and my religious beliefs. It's like I repent and go back and do it over and over again. It's just so frustrating that at times, I've even felt suicidal just coz I haven't been able to set free from this horrible compulsion.
Has anyone of you had a similar experience? If so, it would be great to have an accountability partner on Skype or something (doesn't have to involve talking, just even messaging helps.)