Out_of_The_Pits
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Well had a pretty bad day yesterday. had massive sensory overload in the form of a migrain headache for 12 hours with nothing to do and no money or gas to go somewhere and take my mind off it. for some reason turned to full pmo for relief. 
A couple things I tried
thought suppression. Tough to maintain works for a few days
reverse affirmations. These included saying things like "fetishes turn me off" This didn't work for me because while reduced craving it reminded me that it was there.
distraction It took my mind off porn but due to its reactionary nature led to horrible anxiety.
It did encourage some reading on fetishes and addictions to see what I can do differently. there are 2 things that jumped out at me.
1) people prone to addiction universally suffer from very low self-esteem and get hooked when the feel out of control.
2) A lot of self harm/humililation stuff tends to emerge from blocked emotions in day to day life (In addition to the cognitive aspect discussed at yourbrainonporn.com). Blocking anger seams pretty common. It would explain why I haven't felt an ounce of anger in over 10 years even when I needed to. People with this problem are trying to metaphorically punish their emotional selves by becoming the dom and sub.
After the relapse I did a start a rage painting and it was one of the most liberating feelings I've had in a very long time.
I'M NEVER GOING TO GIVE UP!
A couple things I tried
thought suppression. Tough to maintain works for a few days
reverse affirmations. These included saying things like "fetishes turn me off" This didn't work for me because while reduced craving it reminded me that it was there.
distraction It took my mind off porn but due to its reactionary nature led to horrible anxiety.
It did encourage some reading on fetishes and addictions to see what I can do differently. there are 2 things that jumped out at me.
1) people prone to addiction universally suffer from very low self-esteem and get hooked when the feel out of control.
2) A lot of self harm/humililation stuff tends to emerge from blocked emotions in day to day life (In addition to the cognitive aspect discussed at yourbrainonporn.com). Blocking anger seams pretty common. It would explain why I haven't felt an ounce of anger in over 10 years even when I needed to. People with this problem are trying to metaphorically punish their emotional selves by becoming the dom and sub.
After the relapse I did a start a rage painting and it was one of the most liberating feelings I've had in a very long time.
I'M NEVER GOING TO GIVE UP!