I'm not sure why, but I've been feeling triggered lately, especially today. I had a reset back on 12/27 after 114 days of sobriety and I feel like i lost a lot of progress with that relapse. I just keep getting feelings of denial and my addict keeps whispering to me, "looking at porn will make you feel better" "it's just a click away" "no one has to know" "it's just porn, every guy looks at it". I've been obsessively doubting the strength of my relationship with my wife and I feel like all of this stress is just self-inflicted and my addict is just waiting to take the wheel and drive me off into the ditch. I have been rather absent on this forum lately and that is not ok for me. Recovery must be a priority and this forum, along with SAA, is the basis of it.