Kubrickian
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Hi there one and all Happy 2015! I'm hoping I can get some feedback on this from anyone who has experienced similar scenarios or has any productive ideas on this particular problem!I think I'm making some progress I did a 42 day reboot and relapsed and have since done 32 days no M or P! I have had stirrings down below which I hadn't felt i decades and found that if I just stroke lightly with the tips of my fingers I can achieve a decent erection on my own! The problem is and it's the one I started with in the first place when it comes to being with a girl I still have severe anxiety that I won't be able to perform and if that's the case the first time with a very hot girl the. That hot girl is going to make her excuses and not want to see me again- so I take the blue pill to make sure it works as the anxiety gets stronger and stronger closer to the actual interaction, I took half last week and everything went great and then I took half this weekend and there were some near failures and I got even more worried!! Infact I was so worried I wouldn't be able to achieve a morning erection to satisfy her and 'seal the deal' that I got up in the middle of the night and took another half! I'm so dissappinted in myself but have no clue how to get around this as telling myself not to worry just doesn't work and when a girl is very attractive to me I am desperate to keep her liking me and know she could easily get some guy that gets ro ck h ar d just from looking at her or at least having the luck to be having sex with her! The other thing is with the pills it completely diminishes the amazing sensations my penis feels numb and with a condom almost to the point of feeling hardly anything, the sex is more being able to appreciate her body and the sounds and movements than the sensations on my penis and that is deppressing! Also I can keep doing this as long as I know I have some time before sex to let the pill take effect but what if she wants something spontaneous to happen? She'll find out I'm a fraud that I'm only artificially a man in the bedroom for her! I suppose I'm just asking for help, advice cause in all honesty it's driving me a bit crazy and making me believe that yes I can get past PIED but can I ever get past performance anxiety?????
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