Recovery: Not Afraid

[Eminem]

Day 9: Today went very well, I slept over at c's house, and today we went go carting. 

No urges at all

I didn't take my medicine today, and I noticed that I really do need it to focus. 

Tonight I got. Little bit of homework that I'll do and then I'm going to sleep. 

Today was good, hopefully tomorrow will be too!

Good luck to everyone who is reading this!

 

[Eminem]

Quick update: I'm not sure if I'm bipolar or if it's a withdrawal symptom, but I think I'm bipolar so when I see my doctor in like a month or 2 I'll ask what they think.

 

[Eminem]

Quick update 2: I have been having some intense mood swings!  Like from happy to extremely depressed.  I also feel empty.  Like I have broken up with a girlfriend, but I haven't.

 

[Eminem]

Day 16: today was good.  My entire week last see was terrible. But I got through it.
I have MO'd a couple times I think 3 times in total in this reboot. BUT NEVER AGAIN.  I feel so strong now.

I am now dating someone, and I promised myself that I wouldn't look at P, P substitutes or M or M to O,  While we are dating I see it as a good thing that we are dating it provides encouragement through this. 

Things are looking good.

I'm going to start going to the gym Monday's Wednesdays and Fridays with my friend.  So that will be great.  I'm going to be his personal trainer kind of.  He wants me to help him build some muscle before swim season starts back up.

I will start writing daily again.
Good luck guys!

 

[Eminem]

Day 18: today is going good!
I think having a girlfriend is definitely a big help.
A lot of the brain fog is gone and I feel better.

I have more overall energy!

 

[Eminem]

Day 19: today was okay. I had brain fog because I MO'd last night.


It won't happen again.

I will update this page once a week from now on and I'm going to use a physical journal for now.

I may update more than once a week, but every Tuesday I will post.

I am not going to reset my counter and or anything because I havnt looked at full P.  Even though I have looked at P substitutes a few times.  I will be able to get through this.
Thanks for reading

 

[Eminem]

Okay I screwed up. The past couple days have sucked! I am telling my mom today, and I am keeping a daily journal. I will update on here every day from now on.
The end of tomorrow is going to be the end of day 1.

See you guys tomorrow

 

[fightforlife]

Don?t let those relapses get you down. Keep investing hard work into your reboot and in the end you will succeed like so many others!

 

[Neo J316]

Brother I know this might sound unnecessary but the only times I've been able to stay off of porn . Was when I had no access to Porn .

  It's that simple

It's crazy really , Porn has shattered my life but yet the only times I've been able to abstain for long periods of time .

Was when I got a boost , kinda like training wheels in the form of no access .

Try it  8) 2 weeks no fap today 


P.S. if you have a laptop/PC , I suggest you downLoad "K9 Web Protection" and have somebody who loves you (In my case my brother) make and control the psswrd .

It's really awesome , I can go online without needing to test my ultra weak will power  8)