TDBlack
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I've been at the PMO thing way too long. It's completely messed up my sex drive. I've given myself ED. Can't stay hard when having sex with my wife. I think I've programmed myself to be just below full erection so that I can edge for as long as I want during PMO. Meaning, I only get fully erect when I'm ready to climax.
I managed a hard mode for 30 days near the end of last year. Should have linked in here as I did that. I achieved my goal though, anyway. It didn't fully alleviate the ED though. First time with my wife was fine, but a week later I went soft again. I need to abstain longer, I think.
So that's what I'm doing. I'm also working on my own handwritten journal that is quite salty. Some pieces of that pop up on my tumblr page every now and then.
The two main things I know are:
1. I love my wife and would be quite happy again if we could just have real sex/make love once a week or so.
2. PMO for 20 years or so has stunted my brain in ways I don't even understand; 30 days of abstinence gave me a taste of how it feels to be "normal" -- more focus, more energy, better memory, more relaxed.
One last thing: even though I did the 30-day thing, one aspect of my brain seemed to be worse: my emotions kind of dried up. I should have seen that as evidence that I wasn't out of the woods. It was a kind of non-sexual flatline. I am looking for better results from a 90-day course. :-\
More later. I feel great, to be honest. No urges. 8)
I managed a hard mode for 30 days near the end of last year. Should have linked in here as I did that. I achieved my goal though, anyway. It didn't fully alleviate the ED though. First time with my wife was fine, but a week later I went soft again. I need to abstain longer, I think.
So that's what I'm doing. I'm also working on my own handwritten journal that is quite salty. Some pieces of that pop up on my tumblr page every now and then.
The two main things I know are:
1. I love my wife and would be quite happy again if we could just have real sex/make love once a week or so.
2. PMO for 20 years or so has stunted my brain in ways I don't even understand; 30 days of abstinence gave me a taste of how it feels to be "normal" -- more focus, more energy, better memory, more relaxed.
One last thing: even though I did the 30-day thing, one aspect of my brain seemed to be worse: my emotions kind of dried up. I should have seen that as evidence that I wasn't out of the woods. It was a kind of non-sexual flatline. I am looking for better results from a 90-day course. :-\
More later. I feel great, to be honest. No urges. 8)