I am new to this forum and haven't been on a web forum for a long time actually. I am here like all of you are as I have decided to give up the old porn/masterbation game. It came to me by random and I found a lot of info online and read up on it and decided that it might be a good idea.
So last time I watched Porn and jerked off was 2nd of January and it has been pretty good, but hard also, pardon the pun. I would never have considered myself a big porn user. I never liked hard core porn and always preferred to watch the more romantic/softer porn films as they felt more loving and a little bit more like what real sex would be like with someone you cared about. I maybe would do it about 3-4 times a week so compared to some people who you hear doing it 5-7 times a day I am quite tame. I hope luckily for me I got to the masterbation stage in life before high speed internet. So for me my first masterbation was my imagination that got me going. I had no idea what happened after it, but eventually I would get off on the soft core tv shows, shannon tweed movies, red shoe diaries etc. Internet porn didn't come to me until I was 18/19 and then again it wasn't even the high speed days.
Anyways back to my question, it's been about 12/13 days so far and I've been seeing how it would go. Today as I experienced something I had never experienced before. Last night I had my first sexual dream I've had in a long time. It felt so real in my dream that it woke me up. I couldn't believe it. I didn't have a wet dream or anything, but I woke up and got in the shower and I kind of started massaging my penis. I was in a way wanting to do it, but only did it soft and gently, but I stopped myself and said "nope, I am not gonna do it". I didn't mind that either so it wasn't like I made myself guilty for fondling it as I am only human. I got with my shower and as I was washing myself I felt a kind of energy in me. It was amazing. I do not know what it was was. My mind wasn't anywhere except in the shower. I wasn't thinking about any girl or anything. It felt so good it was like some kind of orgasm but I was only touching my body. I hadn't even touched my penis after I said "no to it". So this feeling seemed to just come about through massage of my body. It was like some invisible ghost was making love to me. It never really stopped at all. I just left the shower and went on to get ready and go about my day. It kept coming back to mind though all day and I couldnt help but wonder if this was a result of my new pledge to life.
I have looked up descriptions of Edging, but this doesn't seem what like edging sounds like as I have done edging in the past and this was not edging.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of thing before?
So last time I watched Porn and jerked off was 2nd of January and it has been pretty good, but hard also, pardon the pun. I would never have considered myself a big porn user. I never liked hard core porn and always preferred to watch the more romantic/softer porn films as they felt more loving and a little bit more like what real sex would be like with someone you cared about. I maybe would do it about 3-4 times a week so compared to some people who you hear doing it 5-7 times a day I am quite tame. I hope luckily for me I got to the masterbation stage in life before high speed internet. So for me my first masterbation was my imagination that got me going. I had no idea what happened after it, but eventually I would get off on the soft core tv shows, shannon tweed movies, red shoe diaries etc. Internet porn didn't come to me until I was 18/19 and then again it wasn't even the high speed days.
Anyways back to my question, it's been about 12/13 days so far and I've been seeing how it would go. Today as I experienced something I had never experienced before. Last night I had my first sexual dream I've had in a long time. It felt so real in my dream that it woke me up. I couldn't believe it. I didn't have a wet dream or anything, but I woke up and got in the shower and I kind of started massaging my penis. I was in a way wanting to do it, but only did it soft and gently, but I stopped myself and said "nope, I am not gonna do it". I didn't mind that either so it wasn't like I made myself guilty for fondling it as I am only human. I got with my shower and as I was washing myself I felt a kind of energy in me. It was amazing. I do not know what it was was. My mind wasn't anywhere except in the shower. I wasn't thinking about any girl or anything. It felt so good it was like some kind of orgasm but I was only touching my body. I hadn't even touched my penis after I said "no to it". So this feeling seemed to just come about through massage of my body. It was like some invisible ghost was making love to me. It never really stopped at all. I just left the shower and went on to get ready and go about my day. It kept coming back to mind though all day and I couldnt help but wonder if this was a result of my new pledge to life.
I have looked up descriptions of Edging, but this doesn't seem what like edging sounds like as I have done edging in the past and this was not edging.
Has anyone else experienced this kind of thing before?
