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hi,
i'm markus from germany (sorry for my english), 28 years old and addicted to porn for over 10years now. i stumbled about this theme on a bodybuilding-forum. i immediately startet to get information on google and youtube. i was really shocked
the last years was no single day without porn. sometimes i watch 10hours in a row, jerking of 5 times, go to sleep, wake up und jerk off again. i could'nt stop. even if i jerk off 5times at one day, i must jerk off 2times in the night or i couldn't sleep. i had a huge porn collection, hundreds of saved links and youtube favorites. i search every fu*king day for new porn...for hours!! unbeleavibel! my fantasies was not longer about normal sex with a woman. i ended up by hardcore bdsm, voyeur and snuff movies. sometimes i jerk off to videos girls getting strangled, branded and other stuff like that. i registred at chatrooms with fake profiles to talk with woman about analsex, cum swallowing, cumshots etc. that's real fucked up. i feel al lot of shame about that.
i never had a real relationship. there were a lot of woman who like me, but i blocked them all. i was not interested in them anymore. when i try to sleep with a girl, i was not a bit aroused or horny. i lay there naked, and my dick get's smaller! i feel very weird and find excuses to get out of the situation and never see this girl again. i get depressed and hated woman.
i started nofap and noporn 5 days ago. i got huge cravings. my brain is telling me all the time: "go to the computer, you miss the best videos...come on, there are hundreds of new films. maybee the best you will ever see and so on". my libido feels very low at the moment. no boners at day or night. i'm a bit aggressive, but i try my best to stay away.
that's my story...i will update this post on regular bases.
cya, markus
i'm markus from germany (sorry for my english), 28 years old and addicted to porn for over 10years now. i stumbled about this theme on a bodybuilding-forum. i immediately startet to get information on google and youtube. i was really shocked
the last years was no single day without porn. sometimes i watch 10hours in a row, jerking of 5 times, go to sleep, wake up und jerk off again. i could'nt stop. even if i jerk off 5times at one day, i must jerk off 2times in the night or i couldn't sleep. i had a huge porn collection, hundreds of saved links and youtube favorites. i search every fu*king day for new porn...for hours!! unbeleavibel! my fantasies was not longer about normal sex with a woman. i ended up by hardcore bdsm, voyeur and snuff movies. sometimes i jerk off to videos girls getting strangled, branded and other stuff like that. i registred at chatrooms with fake profiles to talk with woman about analsex, cum swallowing, cumshots etc. that's real fucked up. i feel al lot of shame about that.
i never had a real relationship. there were a lot of woman who like me, but i blocked them all. i was not interested in them anymore. when i try to sleep with a girl, i was not a bit aroused or horny. i lay there naked, and my dick get's smaller! i feel very weird and find excuses to get out of the situation and never see this girl again. i get depressed and hated woman.
i started nofap and noporn 5 days ago. i got huge cravings. my brain is telling me all the time: "go to the computer, you miss the best videos...come on, there are hundreds of new films. maybee the best you will ever see and so on". my libido feels very low at the moment. no boners at day or night. i'm a bit aggressive, but i try my best to stay away.
that's my story...i will update this post on regular bases.
cya, markus