My mind is set

[Akainu]

• Long story short.
  
  I'm 22 years old from Europe. I tried this two times before. I did not go all in though. This is my third time and as you can see, I'm trying hard this time! Watch and see how I progress.
  
  My problem is that I have erection problems. It's just not good as it used to be. Not even close. I want it to be harder and be able to maintain it for a longer time. I also want to be able to get it up more often. So there you have my three things I want to achieve by eliminating PMO.
  
  First try, huge improvements after just a month. But then I started watching porn again because the summer was over. Bad excuse.
  Second try, I stopped watching porn for 15 days because I was getting laid and it was an emergency strategy. Bad cause.
  Third try, honestly it may be for the same cause as before, but I also want to be cured. I don't want it to be temporary fixed for a coupe of weeks. I want it to be a long-term fix.
  
  
  What I did this time was to block porn sites I usually visit. If I ever try to engage them, I will be reminded of what I'm trying to achieve.
  
  ** Recent News ** 25/2
  
  • Sex and erections, multiple times: So I've had sex, fully erect multiple times! Yay. Still don't wanna call myself fully recovered though. Not even near 100% healed.
  
  
  
  **Achievements**
  
  • No urge to watch porn at all I'm not even thinking about watching it or any substitutes for porn either.
    • 10 days I'm not even thinking about watching it or any substitutes for porn either.
    • 12 days Managed to have sex two times without condom after 12 days PMO free
    • 20 days Managed to have sex without erection problems two times in one night
    • 24 days Third time I had sex, two times during the night. No foreplay was needed and the erection was good!
    • 34 days Had sex, fully erect multiple times
      

 

[Fappy]

Hey red dog 
Everyone takes a few tries before we get it right. This is your third time, and probably not the last.
Just remember what your triggers were last time, take a note of them and eliminate them when they arise.

Fappacino

 

[jnv]

Welcome back on board Mr Sakazuki.

You did great during your first try, you can do it again and better man. When you start a new streak, make sure you do something more than during the previous attempt so that it will be harder to give in.

Be strong.

 

[goal_acheiver]

GREAT BRO...UR DOING GREAT..THIS TIME DONT GIVE UP

 

[Akainu]

Thanks guys.

Are you guys avoiding P or the entire PMO?
Today I realized it's still working down there.
My problem is my stamina and the duration of it.

Let's say I don't PMO for a week.
If I would try and have sex at the end of the week. It would work.
The problem is that it would only last for like 10 seconds because of being used to PMO on a daily basis.
And the second problem is that after I O once. It's hard to get it up again.

There was this girl I did it with after resiting PMO for a week.
As you may understand, avoiding PMO for a week, during the first week is difficult.
And I'm not even kidding now, I went in and out, in and out, in and out. Maybe two more times and then I was done.
She said: Aw it's ok, we'll just try again in a couple minutes. Okay?
- Okay.

Yeah, that second try didn't happen lol. Or the try happened but the redemption sex never happened.
It went in and I just lost touch and it became like a warm sausage. What the hell?
And yeah, I never heard from that girl again hahah.

Therefore my goals are:

Harder.
Stamina (duration and occasions) 

 

[Akainu]

Five days without porn.

Late night studies.
I was really tempted to enter a porn site.

Then I remembered that I blocked them all so I can't.

And then... I was reminded why I did that.  :

 

[Akainu]

Date on friday.
We'll see how much a week of this will do.
Not much probably.
Last time 4 days was temporarily good tho... for lasting 10 secs

 

[Akainu]

Blocking porn sites actually helped.

It's like I'm unconsciously aware of that I can't access porn anymore that I'm not even trying.
Let's hope I can slow down the MO too.
One week has not even passed yet so I'm drawing 0 conclusions of this.
Off to the gym now,

Over and out. 

 

[Akainu]

LOL

Date night

So I went on my date. Not sure what I as expecting.
I woke up and she texted me saying that we can be at her place.

At her place I quickly realized I couldn't get it up as much as I wanted so I as like "Oh god.."

We kissed and she starts to strip.
I took off my clothes too.
Then she stopped and said: I'm sorry I can't.
I was like: ?
- I want to but can't go all the way because I'm on my period...

Huuge relief. That period spared the potential disappointment.

Spent the entire night just spooning her in underwear, kissing and watching a movie. No pressure at all.
It was a really good night. But bad for my ED. Because even though I was spooning her, with her only having her thong on - I just couldn't get it up. It was like a hot sausage, and that's it.

A while ago, 4 days without PMO was enough to get it up.
4 days without PMO was yesterday, but I just couldn't.

A big difference here to mention is that, this time, I've had 0 problems avoiding porn, M and O.
I havn't been thinking about sex at all.
I'm gonna see her again next week. Hopefully I will be ready by then.

 

[Akainu]

BLUE BALLS

It's killing me.
Have you ever been punched/kicked in the nuts?
I've been punched really hard in the nuts, and that is extreme temporary pain that went away after around 10-15 min.
Blue balls in the other hand is like continuously getting punched in the nuts and can last for hours.

I know that it is perhaps suggested that you should release the pressure to get rid of this. But then the entire goal with getting better goes to waste.

What I tried before was to MO without thinking about P. But I honestly don't know if that worked. It was such a temporary solution. And it also hurts while MOing during this pain.

What I'll do this time is to endure the pain.

My body has been used to ejaculation on a daily basis for years and years. And the amazing human body is also known to adapt quickly. So I will endure the pain. Let my body know that I wont be ejaculating on a daily basis anymore.


Strategy change

So since I have not been Ming or Oing anyway. My strategy is changed.
I will eliminate P, M and O. However, I won't stop having sex if I want to do it. And I think that is fine. It's not like I will have sex too often anyway. Max a couple times a month.

 

[Akainu]

So I completed 10 days PMO free.

Today I'm proud.
It was saturday right, and I was home alone, studying.
The girl I'm seeing sent some selfies on snapchat, asking me to go out with her.
But I couldn't because I really had to study.

I had only boxers on which made me touch myself a bit. Which gave me blue balls...

What I did was to go into the shower and put extremely cold water to my balls.
Did the blue balls disappear?

Do you know how cold your shower is??? I didn't because I never try and go the other direction while showering. But I tried this time. It was so cold that I lost feeling down there. So of course the pain goes away temporarily.

It came back a couple minutes after I was warm again. But the cold shower was definetly a temporary solution.

Moreover, the blue balls disappeared by itself like 1 hour after that.

I'm so glad that I did not give into the tips saying that you should M and release the pressure. If I would, I would have relapsed and started on 0.

But I didn't.

 

[Akainu]

Day 11.

I still have no urges to watch porn.
However, for the first time in a couple days, I got my urges for sex back again.
I stayed home all weekend and I have not been MOing at all. However, right now I felt like Ming, but did not.
Blue balls gone too.

I'm gonna meet the girl I'm dating on Tuesday.
Pretty excited to see if I can get it up or not.

We're gonna eat dinner and have oil massage. So it won't be a quickie, hardcore pump. Which is good I think.
I need to be more aware and attracted to her.

 

[Akainu]

Sex

Day 13.

Yesterday I had sex without a condom.
So it was 12 days without any PMO. 12 days without sex and then I went for it.
Now, sex does not reset my strategy here. So it was a part of the plan.

How was it?

We had a very long foreplay which helped alot.
We talked, kissed, ordered food, kissed more, talked more, watched a movie.
We even had a oil massage session with music on. Haha sounds really cheesy and lame but it helped. I was so warmed up.

But then... I was gonna put the condom on and my D went from steel to sausage again. So that sucked.
I was embarrassed and managed to say for myself "I hate condoms" which I really do. And she said she is on the pill.
She said we can skip the condom. I was so relieved. Because I have not had sex without condom in a very long time.

So we started to kiss again and I was warmed up again. Then I quickly put it in.
While I was inside, I managed to keep it up. It felt really nice. So nice that I came after like... 7 seconds.
But I know it is because I'm used to PMO everyday, and 12 days off after that is mainly the problem.

2 hours later, we went for it again, very naturally while lying in bed watching a movie. One thing led to another and then I was in again, without any problem. That time it took me like 1 minute of pumping.

Haha so maybe I'm quick but I know it's gonna be like that until my body is used to only O:ing a couple times a month.
By the way, I think the average time of active sex is like 5 min anyway so don't be suprised .

And PS. I made her cum both times anyway, even though my friend couldn't last longer. There are other ways to make her satisfied .

 

[mybestself]

Hey Akainu, nice work on your current streak! Regarding the sex stuff, I can remember back to when I had my first proper reboot off porn and it definitely had the effect of me reaching climax in record time. Now (some time later) it's not an issue. From my experience your ability to last will get better : )

 

[Akainu]

Hey! Thanks man.
I believe you. The blue balls are already disappearing. The body is adapting quick
I started feeling a little bit of that true sensation from the sex which I havn't felt in a long time.

 

[Akainu]

Day 16.

Wow, already two weeks has passed.

I have not been thinking about porn a single time.

I have thought about M:ing just a very few times. Almost nothing at all.

My mind is so set. So set into achieving these goals.

I O:ed two times during day 12, but that was the sex, which is not included in my calculations.

 

[Akainu]

Day 18.

Damn. Blue balls are still there.

However they are not as severe as they used to be. And they don't last as long either... So far.

 

[Akainu]

Still day 18.

This might be the hardest day so far.

I endured the day. But night is coming.

I realized that my blue balls are not completely gone. They came back today.

I was supposed to meet up with a girl before she leaves the country for a trip.

But it seems like that won't happen. And I was really feeling to have sex lol... I was expecting it too.

If this was any other day I would MO straight away and then watch a movie and sleep.

But this is going to be hard. I will endure. Cause I'm not going back.

Over and out.

 

[Akainu]

Day 19.

I managed to survive day 18.

Damn those blue balls. I woke up today and they are gone now!

I might be getting laid tonight which is nice. Not because of the O effect. It's just a nice confidence booster.

Hopefully I can get it up harder and last longer this time.

EDIT: ok, blue balls are not gone. It hurts so bad right now lol.. Gotta endure.

 

[Vincent]

hey Mr. Fleet Admiral,

18 days are nice and you seem to have quite a vivid dating life ;D which surely is to envy 8)

Just a quick question to clarify:

you get those blue balls just because you are refraining from O, right?
In case that you're edging I could tell you where the problem lies, physiologically.

otherwise I could not explain, why you should get blue balls.

I hope it will get better soon.

all the best, Vincent.