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What's up guys. My name is Jeremy and I have porn-induced ED. My life has honestly been a slow decline sexually and i guess I really didn't know why... after countless google searches and youtube videos on the subject, I came across the Gary Wilson videos on porn addiction and the rebooting process. Also Gabe Deem posted an interesting video that enjoyed. I've finally realized it IS the porn contributing to my problems. It has been for a while, and I can only imagine what other problems lie with it. It's truely amazing my GF of 7 years is with me today. I have given up masturbation and porn exactly a week ago. This decision I made really is the step to me getting back to normal. I need guidance and a little support tho cause it's wrecked my relationship and my self confidence.
When I was a teenager I LOVED sexual videos. Anything i could get my hands on! It started with erotic videos, then I found a lot better VHS at the time, then I bought DVDs. I really didnt feel proud of this. In fact, in the midst of this addiction, I knew what I was doing was wrong and I would break or throw out all the DVDs and VHS I've acquired, but that wasn't the end unfortunately...
It got as bad as me using my iPod touch to walk down the street and hit wifi spots at other houses and streaming a video, if i was at work the wifi there helped out too and I would masturbate in the bathroom there. Then I finally got high speed internet for myself and a smartphone and this problem was easy to keep progressing at home.
I have really bad "what ifs" over my head. I'm 27 and I feel like I've wasted life so far. I love this girl that I'm with so much. So much that I told her to leave me because I didn't deserve her. We have our arguments about this topic and it hurts. It HURTS.
I'm living with her now. I didn't masturbate more than once a day...It took porn to do it tho. Sometimes it was every other day, but I have ED and it just didn't seem right. I'm in physical shape, I take care of myself...but this problem looms. I'm glad this site exists, because after a long and grueling struggle with this problem, I've got nowhere else to turn..
My goals are to:
-- Continue the NoFap strategy for 3 months
-- Abstain from any addiction-related sexually explicit videos, pictures or sites indefinitely
-- Eliminate the need for excessive caffeine consumption
-- Write in this journal every week to record my progress
This addiction is ruining my personal life. I've needed help. This site can help me.
I welcome any messages, advice or just regular conversation! Please feel free to contact me through email. I want to hear more from the 20-30 year olds out there.
Thanks guys!
When I was a teenager I LOVED sexual videos. Anything i could get my hands on! It started with erotic videos, then I found a lot better VHS at the time, then I bought DVDs. I really didnt feel proud of this. In fact, in the midst of this addiction, I knew what I was doing was wrong and I would break or throw out all the DVDs and VHS I've acquired, but that wasn't the end unfortunately...
It got as bad as me using my iPod touch to walk down the street and hit wifi spots at other houses and streaming a video, if i was at work the wifi there helped out too and I would masturbate in the bathroom there. Then I finally got high speed internet for myself and a smartphone and this problem was easy to keep progressing at home.
I have really bad "what ifs" over my head. I'm 27 and I feel like I've wasted life so far. I love this girl that I'm with so much. So much that I told her to leave me because I didn't deserve her. We have our arguments about this topic and it hurts. It HURTS.
I'm living with her now. I didn't masturbate more than once a day...It took porn to do it tho. Sometimes it was every other day, but I have ED and it just didn't seem right. I'm in physical shape, I take care of myself...but this problem looms. I'm glad this site exists, because after a long and grueling struggle with this problem, I've got nowhere else to turn..
My goals are to:
-- Continue the NoFap strategy for 3 months
-- Abstain from any addiction-related sexually explicit videos, pictures or sites indefinitely
-- Eliminate the need for excessive caffeine consumption
-- Write in this journal every week to record my progress
This addiction is ruining my personal life. I've needed help. This site can help me.
I welcome any messages, advice or just regular conversation! Please feel free to contact me through email. I want to hear more from the 20-30 year olds out there.
Thanks guys!