Hello everyone.
I was directed to this website a few hours ago, and read the rules, guidelines, and such, and decided this could be beneficial to my recovery.
I'm 29 years old, been PMO'ing my life away for several years. While I don't remember just how many, I must have started at around 14-15.
Although my cravings led me to the darkest places of my mind, I was never into the most hardcore/violent things.
But first it was pictures, then video, then pictures and videos with chat, and it would last for hours - 4, 5, 6... so I'm happy I'm starting this now.
I've been with the same girl for 11 years, lived with her for about 7 years, and we split up a year and a half ago for reasons not related to my porn addiction.
We're still seeing each other at least once a week and the sex was always good, except it's been deteriorating in the last months- quickly, and drastically. Now I know I was starting to develop ED, but I kept giving excuses for it: ''feeling under the weather'', ''masturbated this morning/last night'', etc. The more I think about it, the farther I think it goes back, but the severe consequences started recently. On our 11th anniversary (17 days ago), I just couldn't get it up at all, which shocked me and destroyed me. I've always had erections at the worst times and places, and very easily just thinking about a woman's body until a few months ago.
I've also started getting brain fog and feeling anxious around people, especially when they're happy or excited for something. I don't know if it's related, but I recognized myself when watching Reboot Nation's video. I'm an artist and I feel like my porn addiction has been destroying my creativity, productivity (big time) and will to do anything other than masturbate.
That being said, I'm on day 6 now, and it's been difficult so far, especially today, but I'm happy I managed to avoid looking at porn.
I'll be mainly using two tools for my recovery. This forum, and an app called habitRPG (big RPG fan ) which lets you set habits, daily tasks, rewards, etc. This last one also helps me with taking back control over my life (there's a big cleaning up to be done there, too, and maybe a good defrag )
Thanks for reading
I was directed to this website a few hours ago, and read the rules, guidelines, and such, and decided this could be beneficial to my recovery.
I'm 29 years old, been PMO'ing my life away for several years. While I don't remember just how many, I must have started at around 14-15.
Although my cravings led me to the darkest places of my mind, I was never into the most hardcore/violent things.
But first it was pictures, then video, then pictures and videos with chat, and it would last for hours - 4, 5, 6... so I'm happy I'm starting this now.
I've been with the same girl for 11 years, lived with her for about 7 years, and we split up a year and a half ago for reasons not related to my porn addiction.
We're still seeing each other at least once a week and the sex was always good, except it's been deteriorating in the last months- quickly, and drastically. Now I know I was starting to develop ED, but I kept giving excuses for it: ''feeling under the weather'', ''masturbated this morning/last night'', etc. The more I think about it, the farther I think it goes back, but the severe consequences started recently. On our 11th anniversary (17 days ago), I just couldn't get it up at all, which shocked me and destroyed me. I've always had erections at the worst times and places, and very easily just thinking about a woman's body until a few months ago.
I've also started getting brain fog and feeling anxious around people, especially when they're happy or excited for something. I don't know if it's related, but I recognized myself when watching Reboot Nation's video. I'm an artist and I feel like my porn addiction has been destroying my creativity, productivity (big time) and will to do anything other than masturbate.
That being said, I'm on day 6 now, and it's been difficult so far, especially today, but I'm happy I managed to avoid looking at porn.
I'll be mainly using two tools for my recovery. This forum, and an app called habitRPG (big RPG fan ) which lets you set habits, daily tasks, rewards, etc. This last one also helps me with taking back control over my life (there's a big cleaning up to be done there, too, and maybe a good defrag )
Thanks for reading