failing failing failing any help?

[fapfreezone]

The important point about no 2 is the "secretly wish" part. I don't mean if PMO was all positive would you do it, I mean do you sometimes really wish it was fine because you want to be able to do it. I would PMO if it was only positive, but I don't secretly wish to because I know the harm it does. I accept that it is bad and don't want any part of it. I don't want to try to fix it, or find a better version, I just want out. I don't stop and reminisce about the good times with PMO, wishing I could do it.

 

[Fallen]

Then I would say no. I have the urge to do it, but apart from that, I don't ever think, "what a nice afternoon I could have if only PMO was healthy."