Reboot Journal After a Week

[Paddrecon]

Greetings everyone,

I have been rebooting since the last Monday without P or P substitutes and have been successful until now. I am dedicated to finish the 90 days and your support will be indispensable in the process. Urges are still present but they are abating and I am beginning to establish nicer relationships with girls, actually I began to harbor some feelings for my classmate which seems a bit awkward in my opinion. Furthermore, I began to quit seeing women as sex objects only and I began to be much more productive.

 

[Paddrecon]

Day 9

Today I woke up and while I was at school I began to get random erections which made it hard for me to walk although I had masturbated twice two days ago. I feel really really horny and thinking seriously about a relief with an escort. Can I get your opinions? I just browsed sexy lingerie for the escort to get a nice service and did not jerk to it and I am still committed to no P or P substitutes for self-satisfaction.  What are your opinions?

 

[Paddrecon]

In order to arrange escort I looked at escort ads briefly yesterday and two days ago. I did not masturbate while looking at them nor get extremely aroused. However, after I arranged meetings with the escorts I cancelled them not to spend too much money since I am still a student. Later I masturbated fantasizing how would the sex be like with the escorts with the aid of some remaining stockings from my previous encounters? As my urologist prescribed I am on horny goat weed and getting extremely horny at times especially at the university campus where there are lots of sexy and beautiful girls, I even began to get random erections just by thought. Therefore, I think I am making progress; what do you think?

I would really appreciate it if someone commented on my status. For the porn I am free for the time my counter says and the escort ads I browsed was solely rendezvous purposes, though I cancelled them later.

 

[Paddrecon]

Hello everyone,

This is day 15 and I am up to the challenge to fulfill my goal of 30 days and continue to quit porn forever. As I stated earlier I looked at escort ads and arranged some meetings, which I cancelled later, in order to have real sex. My aim is to quit this habit of mine of having regular paid sex and find a sex partner or a girlfriend.Do you count me as relapsed since I looked at escort ads and arranged meetings? I did not arrange meetings with the prior intention of canceling by the way, so I did not look at the escort ads on the pretext of arranging a meeting. Due to my desire to keep my money and salary being paid just the day before I would visit the escort I felt guilty and cancelled my meeting, but I am still horny and looking for an encounter. I would really like to have your comments and suggestions for me as my mood is swinging constantly too. Apart from that I began to see improvements in every aspect of my life, but I am in a kind of depression.

Thanks for the feedback,