guitahplayah
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My name is Doug and I was born in 1958 to a father that was born in Frankfurt am Main, Germany. He did not know how to love himself. He did not know how to love me or our mother; I think he THOUGHT he did. I found porn under BOTH sides of my parents' bed in 1971. That began for me an odyssey of unmet need exploration through all the wrong things?alcohol, drugs, nicotine and sex predicated more on experimentation than genuine love and intimacy. My library of self-help/self-love books is vast. It's even been suggested to me that I make a catalog of all the books I have so as to be able to help others.
By the way, I think the simplicity of AA is brilliant:
Trust God
Clean House
Help Others
My goal with this journal is to help me become the man that Higher Power/G-d has always intended for me. I pray that my weakness be transformed into strength through allowing G-d to drive the bus.
Dating:
Don't get me started. I have never had any business dating because I have NEVER loved myself. THAT is what this journal and this journey is about?the desire to love myself by honoring the divine within...by owning my body, owning my experience, forgiving others and accepting what is.
Thich Nhat Hanh says that if you want to heal the past, you can do so by meditating deeply in the present moment.
That is essentially what I am endeavoring to do here. I welcome your comments and look forward to sharing your experience, strength and hope.
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? I did not use porn today.
? My triggers were thoughts that told me "You have to have sex..."
? I soothed my anxiety or stress through PMO
? Today, I am grateful that I found this online community; now, rather than searching for hits I used to get from images, I am searching for success stories from other people who, like me, have been using PMO to fill an unmet needs of acceptance, attention, affection, allowance and appreciation.
(Can anyone tell me how to copy/paste the html counter, please?)
I honor the divine within everyone everywhere.
Doug
By the way, I think the simplicity of AA is brilliant:
Trust God
Clean House
Help Others
My goal with this journal is to help me become the man that Higher Power/G-d has always intended for me. I pray that my weakness be transformed into strength through allowing G-d to drive the bus.
Dating:
Don't get me started. I have never had any business dating because I have NEVER loved myself. THAT is what this journal and this journey is about?the desire to love myself by honoring the divine within...by owning my body, owning my experience, forgiving others and accepting what is.
Thich Nhat Hanh says that if you want to heal the past, you can do so by meditating deeply in the present moment.
That is essentially what I am endeavoring to do here. I welcome your comments and look forward to sharing your experience, strength and hope.
===>
? I did not use porn today.
? My triggers were thoughts that told me "You have to have sex..."
? I soothed my anxiety or stress through PMO
? Today, I am grateful that I found this online community; now, rather than searching for hits I used to get from images, I am searching for success stories from other people who, like me, have been using PMO to fill an unmet needs of acceptance, attention, affection, allowance and appreciation.
(Can anyone tell me how to copy/paste the html counter, please?)
I honor the divine within everyone everywhere.
Doug
