pierre1234
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Day 1
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Did I use porn today?YES
What were my triggers?Didn't do work as planned, something I was expecting to be done quickly was delayed.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?By watching p*rn and mstb*
What am I grateful for today? Had an honest chat with myself on the importance of being earnest, and the need of agreement between my values and actions
Day counter!1
Day 2 ^_^;
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Did I use porn today?Not so far
What were my triggers? Work getting stuck, images of an actress, neglect from boss, productive work only 2 hrs, thoughts of ex
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?Went to toilet took some wall press and practiced some punches
What am I grateful for today? productive work only 2 hrs, call to a friend some mis understandings sorted out, you for listening
Day counter!1.9
Day 3
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?Work frustration
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?running, yoga in toilet
What am I grateful for today? running
Day counter!3
Day 4
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?work stuck, bill board picture
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?playing game
What am I grateful for today? four and still sober
Day counter!4
on the edge. can't sleep.hope some one reads. and understands. My values are in conflict with my addiction. I will regret it either ways, so why not do some right things. objectification of woman is to be resisted. Think of the porn actress as a human being. Would you as a human being peep into another human being's private acts. You are more than the pleasure craving part of brain. You know there are subtler pleasures in life. Perhaps you will never find love again, but you might take pleasure in hoping. No self pity and no playing the victim. your life your choices. Shit happens, but as long as it doesn't hit the fan its ok. Think of death, think of the universe, think of the unfathomable mysteries of life. Time is precious. Don't waste it staying numb. Don't be a shell. Be visceral .Stay hungry Stay foolish
Day 5
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers? work not working
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?exercise in toilet
What am I grateful for today? cooking with friends
Day counter!5
Day 6
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?demands from family, work meeting not as productive
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?eating junk food, browsing internet
What am I grateful for today? being sober
Day counter!6
I realize that I use porn to relax and sleep.I am feeling pretty edgy and not able to sleep. I was sleepy at work because of which meeting didn't go well.I am feeling like an insomniac.should I just give up and relax? To sleep perchance to dream? life is feeling too bland. too cold. A little warmth might end up being a wild fire which I cant control.I shall play myself to sleep.
Day 7
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?work no progress, feeling sleepy at work
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?cold shower
What am I grateful for today? cold shower
Day counter!7
Day 8
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?family problems
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?sang songs
What am I grateful for today? talked to a friend
Day counter!8
Afraid to be alone with myself. Might trip.
Day 42
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Did I use porn today?No But I read a rather raunchy novel, and looked at revealing images of a beautiful actress.
What were my triggers?job loss, cold attitude by 'friend who is a girl'
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?Slept (I could because its a weekend)
What am I grateful for today?The sun after a cold spell, 40 minutes of running
Day counter!42
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Did I use porn today?YES
What were my triggers?Didn't do work as planned, something I was expecting to be done quickly was delayed.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?By watching p*rn and mstb*
What am I grateful for today? Had an honest chat with myself on the importance of being earnest, and the need of agreement between my values and actions
Day counter!1
Day 2 ^_^;
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Did I use porn today?Not so far
What were my triggers? Work getting stuck, images of an actress, neglect from boss, productive work only 2 hrs, thoughts of ex
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?Went to toilet took some wall press and practiced some punches
What am I grateful for today? productive work only 2 hrs, call to a friend some mis understandings sorted out, you for listening
Day counter!1.9
Day 3
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?Work frustration
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?running, yoga in toilet
What am I grateful for today? running
Day counter!3
Day 4
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?work stuck, bill board picture
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?playing game
What am I grateful for today? four and still sober
Day counter!4
on the edge. can't sleep.hope some one reads. and understands. My values are in conflict with my addiction. I will regret it either ways, so why not do some right things. objectification of woman is to be resisted. Think of the porn actress as a human being. Would you as a human being peep into another human being's private acts. You are more than the pleasure craving part of brain. You know there are subtler pleasures in life. Perhaps you will never find love again, but you might take pleasure in hoping. No self pity and no playing the victim. your life your choices. Shit happens, but as long as it doesn't hit the fan its ok. Think of death, think of the universe, think of the unfathomable mysteries of life. Time is precious. Don't waste it staying numb. Don't be a shell. Be visceral .Stay hungry Stay foolish
Day 5
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers? work not working
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?exercise in toilet
What am I grateful for today? cooking with friends
Day counter!5
Day 6
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?demands from family, work meeting not as productive
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?eating junk food, browsing internet
What am I grateful for today? being sober
Day counter!6
I realize that I use porn to relax and sleep.I am feeling pretty edgy and not able to sleep. I was sleepy at work because of which meeting didn't go well.I am feeling like an insomniac.should I just give up and relax? To sleep perchance to dream? life is feeling too bland. too cold. A little warmth might end up being a wild fire which I cant control.I shall play myself to sleep.
Day 7
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?work no progress, feeling sleepy at work
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?cold shower
What am I grateful for today? cold shower
Day counter!7
Day 8
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Did I use porn today?No
What were my triggers?family problems
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?sang songs
What am I grateful for today? talked to a friend
Day counter!8
Afraid to be alone with myself. Might trip.
Day 42
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Did I use porn today?No But I read a rather raunchy novel, and looked at revealing images of a beautiful actress.
What were my triggers?job loss, cold attitude by 'friend who is a girl'
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?Slept (I could because its a weekend)
What am I grateful for today?The sun after a cold spell, 40 minutes of running
Day counter!42