Dear members, I am 57, single and on day 83 of no porn . have been an addict at least as long as internet has been with us and a regular video junkie during the 80's. I stopped cold turkey on Dec 9 About a week in I saw an old friend and became involved with her right away. I told her everything and she has been terrific and patient.
Last week during foreplay she began to stimulate me. With only a partial erection I could not help but orgasm. She is wonderful and lovely. I now find myself thinking about our intimate moments constantly. On Saturday that led me to mo alone. These are the only times I have mo'd since rebooting.
Yesterday and today I feel like I am back in week one. Not sleeping well, trouble concentrating and just out of sorts. I am wondering if my intimate contact with my gf is unhealty or causing me to back step. I only think about her and have no desire to go back to porn. But I think about her in very sexual ways and have told her about it. She says thats a good thing. Why am I struggling with it?
Any advice is appreciated. This jouney is a struggle. I thought I was well on my way and then boom!
Last week during foreplay she began to stimulate me. With only a partial erection I could not help but orgasm. She is wonderful and lovely. I now find myself thinking about our intimate moments constantly. On Saturday that led me to mo alone. These are the only times I have mo'd since rebooting.
Yesterday and today I feel like I am back in week one. Not sleeping well, trouble concentrating and just out of sorts. I am wondering if my intimate contact with my gf is unhealty or causing me to back step. I only think about her and have no desire to go back to porn. But I think about her in very sexual ways and have told her about it. She says thats a good thing. Why am I struggling with it?
Any advice is appreciated. This jouney is a struggle. I thought I was well on my way and then boom!