Discipline
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Hello everybody. I've been PMOing since I was 14 and it's been getting downhill in the last 6 years. I got hooked on porn because it was so hard for me to look for a date because I'm ugly, so I got frustrated and angry and started fantasizing about you know what as a way to relieve, to avenge life i guess. I had some concerns about masturbating and looked it up and found all the good things such as it's natural and it's good for you etc. I think that further reinforced me into doing it more and more and more. I was just feeling like doing it because I hate the fact that I have to work harder than a normal person to achieve anything ( not just dating) because people usually ignore me cuz of my look, then I thought about my dating experiences, got frustrated and fantasized ......... Vicious cycle went on and on.
I finally found the girl I love and married her, but my frustration with life is still there and porn was still my depression med. And the sex got less and less rewarding and I made her sad. I love my wife a lot, she's so special and I never want to make her sad. I started connecting the dots and googled about my bedroom problem and found YBOP. I'm here now on the way to recovery. I'm doing this for my wife
Today I will start learning some new skills, maybe exercise, stop hating and be friendly.
I finally found the girl I love and married her, but my frustration with life is still there and porn was still my depression med. And the sex got less and less rewarding and I made her sad. I love my wife a lot, she's so special and I never want to make her sad. I started connecting the dots and googled about my bedroom problem and found YBOP. I'm here now on the way to recovery. I'm doing this for my wife
Today I will start learning some new skills, maybe exercise, stop hating and be friendly.