Feel too weak for this

[Promise]

I've been trying for a few years now, and not making much progress at all.  The cravings are just too great, and at some point circumstances will just build up and get the better of me.  When I look at this task I see a long time stretched out in front of me, a long time of pain and suffering, and I just don't think I'm strong enough to weather it...

 

[Berens]

Maybe you are 1cm from success. Maybe there is only one thing that you are doing wrong. Albert Einstein said one time: " Its insane to do the same thing over and over again and expect different results".  You say that you cant resist a cravings. But in which circumstances you have the strongest urges?  If you think where you have urges and where you dont have urges, you will be able to choose to stay in places where you dont have urges and avoid places where you have urges. What helped me a lot was taking sheet of paper and making two columns, on one i write what works and on other i write what doesnt works. Staying at home alone doesnt work, staying in public library works. That way you notice what is effective and what is not. There is nothing wrong with you, you havent born different or you are not able to achieve something. If you could wire your brain addict to,porn you can also unwire your brain. I just think that there is one thing that is blocking you. Find what it is and eliminate it. Maybe you are hitting for years with a head to a wall trying to destroy,it. While the way of destroying it is different. Try do something out of a box.

 

[Taric]

Yeah !! Stay strong ! Maybe you have to try other ways to achieve it! I know how it feels, Im getting out of this 3rd time and I felt like i have no strenght anymore to fight it. Mostly because of my panic attacks and awful mood. Still I think we can do this !

 

[Rockit]

Current favourite quote:

I once complained to a friend in recovery that I didn't know how long I'd be able to stay sober for, I didn't know if I'd manage tomorrow still, or next week. And he told me "you don't have to do this tomorrow, you only have to do it today".

You've gone 21 hours. Three more and you've done a day. Focus on that.

 

[Promise]

Thanks a lot for the replies, guys, I'm feeling a lot more positive now.  Thing is, I know I can do it, because I've shown I can overcome cravings before, and I've shown I can stay strong in the face of adversity, and improving my life means so much to me.  I woke up feeling so terrible, I imagine I would have binged if I was at home.  Thankfully I had to go to work, and although I felt like dying in the morning, as the day went on I started to feel much better.

Thanks for your tips, I'll look at my situation, look at what's not working and see if I can change a few things.  And that quote, Rockit, is so true.  One day at a time is the best way.  How I'm going to feel tomorrow is irrelevant, all I have to do is get through today, and that's my victory.

When I have some time I think I'll start a new journal, begin reading threads on here more often and take in some more tips.

 

[Rockit]

Keep this journal going. That way, when you beat it, the happiness at the end may benefit someone who just recently found the forum.  Plus, it will make the journey so much sweeter.

That being said... one day at a time. This journal will be the proof of that.