RockyBalboa
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Hello everybody. Firstly, sorry for my english, couse I don't speak really well.
My problem is I just realized a couple years ago I watch to much porn. I'm 31 and I remember when I was around 24, I had my 'porn days'...I starting watching more and more porn.
Sudenly I realized normal porn was not enough...So I started to get excited watching shemale porn...
Then shemale was not enough...I remember in that period I started to remember my first experiencies in sex. I was 10yo and my sister who was 2 years older introduces me in sex with touching and etc...After that with 15 we had normak sex many times...But that was almost forgot to me, is not something I feel proud about it..
.But sudenly I started watching incest hentai anime porn (not real incest...of course)...I remember the only way to get excited was reading one of that comic...This was almost for 2 years
At the age of 28 years old I fell down in a huge depresion...And when I used to watch porn was every time more hard porn and more weird. Animals, flaher, dogging, cuckold...
I started to visit sex chats with cams where I show my cock and had ciber sex with women. Most of the time there were not women but I was really excited and needed to excite the people so I didnt care if male watched at me...After thst I started allowing some of that men telling me stories about how would they suck me or stuff like that...Then, some months later I started to be curious about the excitation I induced on them...So I really liked set my cam and watch how every men watched my cock (Is really big and all gay men liked it) they cum easy while I jerked off...
After that I knew some men online were dominant, and they started to try to induces me to think I was sucking them....
Then I started to get really really excited when I watched a men on cam with a really big cock, telling me I was a faggot and I was wishing to suck him and sahllow the cum and things like that...
Now the only porn I watch is pictures of men with huges cocks or videos pf gloryholes with black cock cuming...I can be watching porn by hpurs and no erection...But If I see a big cock I only think in the cock cuming in my mouth...Actually...just writting this and imagine the humiliation I had an erection...is so embaressing.... When my excitation finish, I feel really really bad because I'm not gay. I never felt before I iked or get excited with men...Never...I actually dont like man, only the idea of a huge cock humiliating me...But is just like a fantasy I have in front of the computer. If I see a real man I feel nothing...But this feeling while I watch porn cofuses me a lot and makes me feel so bad...
I even cum in my mouth...And I feel freaking bad after that...Becouse I feel like Im sick
This is about the porn? Has anybody experimented something like this...Having fantasies with something you would never do in the real life but excites you a lpt in the comouter?
I want to leave watching porn...I tried in the new year but I watched porn 3 times...and I feel bad because I watch cocks cuming, and I watched porn..so i feel double bad...
What should I do?
Thank hou very much
My problem is I just realized a couple years ago I watch to much porn. I'm 31 and I remember when I was around 24, I had my 'porn days'...I starting watching more and more porn.
Sudenly I realized normal porn was not enough...So I started to get excited watching shemale porn...
Then shemale was not enough...I remember in that period I started to remember my first experiencies in sex. I was 10yo and my sister who was 2 years older introduces me in sex with touching and etc...After that with 15 we had normak sex many times...But that was almost forgot to me, is not something I feel proud about it..
.But sudenly I started watching incest hentai anime porn (not real incest...of course)...I remember the only way to get excited was reading one of that comic...This was almost for 2 years
At the age of 28 years old I fell down in a huge depresion...And when I used to watch porn was every time more hard porn and more weird. Animals, flaher, dogging, cuckold...
I started to visit sex chats with cams where I show my cock and had ciber sex with women. Most of the time there were not women but I was really excited and needed to excite the people so I didnt care if male watched at me...After thst I started allowing some of that men telling me stories about how would they suck me or stuff like that...Then, some months later I started to be curious about the excitation I induced on them...So I really liked set my cam and watch how every men watched my cock (Is really big and all gay men liked it) they cum easy while I jerked off...
After that I knew some men online were dominant, and they started to try to induces me to think I was sucking them....
Then I started to get really really excited when I watched a men on cam with a really big cock, telling me I was a faggot and I was wishing to suck him and sahllow the cum and things like that...
Now the only porn I watch is pictures of men with huges cocks or videos pf gloryholes with black cock cuming...I can be watching porn by hpurs and no erection...But If I see a big cock I only think in the cock cuming in my mouth...Actually...just writting this and imagine the humiliation I had an erection...is so embaressing.... When my excitation finish, I feel really really bad because I'm not gay. I never felt before I iked or get excited with men...Never...I actually dont like man, only the idea of a huge cock humiliating me...But is just like a fantasy I have in front of the computer. If I see a real man I feel nothing...But this feeling while I watch porn cofuses me a lot and makes me feel so bad...
I even cum in my mouth...And I feel freaking bad after that...Becouse I feel like Im sick
This is about the porn? Has anybody experimented something like this...Having fantasies with something you would never do in the real life but excites you a lpt in the comouter?
I want to leave watching porn...I tried in the new year but I watched porn 3 times...and I feel bad because I watch cocks cuming, and I watched porn..so i feel double bad...
What should I do?
Thank hou very much