Hi there! About 10 days ago my world as I knew it got turned a little sideways. My hubby told me that he was a addicted to porn and had been for about the last 17 years. I was glad that he told me and trusted me and our marriage to confide in me. We started out our relationship as friends over 20 years ago. Our sex life has been going down hill over the last few years, but not through lack of trying. We were trying everything and he would try to get me to try things that I wasn't interested in doing. But, he couldn't get a full erection and if he did it wouldn't last. After almost 18 years of marriage later I am not sure how to think about things as I look back. I am hoping that some of you might be able to give me some insight as to my feelings and why I am feeling the way I do.
I have been very honest with him and my though process, maybe overly honest. But, there are some things that I am feeling that I am not sure about. For about the first week, I didn't want him to touch me or even see me naked. I pulled away from his touch and in general just wasn't sure how to feel about being intimate with him. Completely unknown to me, how could I have not known, for the majority of our marriage, porn has been there. In our marriage, our bedroom, and our lives. I feel betrayed and lied to and he knows that. He knows the trust has been broken.
He is a wonderful man that I love so much and I want us to spend the rest of our lives together. Please, tell me that it will get a little easier.
I have been very honest with him and my though process, maybe overly honest. But, there are some things that I am feeling that I am not sure about. For about the first week, I didn't want him to touch me or even see me naked. I pulled away from his touch and in general just wasn't sure how to feel about being intimate with him. Completely unknown to me, how could I have not known, for the majority of our marriage, porn has been there. In our marriage, our bedroom, and our lives. I feel betrayed and lied to and he knows that. He knows the trust has been broken.
He is a wonderful man that I love so much and I want us to spend the rest of our lives together. Please, tell me that it will get a little easier.