Hi everyone,
I'm fucked up - I'm 34 and porn is ruining my life in a bad way. No motivation, no clear mind, no energy to start my life again.
I have been trying rebooting over pretty long amount of time, going though a long phase of flatline. I have done 3/4 months without porn or masturbation, but not feeling anything. The frustration for my condition and the feeling of being a bad person is leading me also to give up my social life, also because I'm pretty good looking and I'm scared to be approached by girls and then ignore them because of my condition of being total impotent and being totally in a NO libido state.
This is again my DAY 1: I did PMO twice today because I was feeling depressed, I reactivated all my block sites and hope and believe I can go through this and heal once for all. I have been struggling with erections and libido in the last 4/5 years.
Sometimes I have been able to reboot, but then as I feel horny again and something frustrates me, I go back to porn to release tension and anxiety, and that brings me back again where I was and I need to spend other 3/4/5 months before feeling something again.
I have tried any type of things: being motivated, going to the gym, improve my diet, getting supplements and pills, doing acupuncture to boost my libido - it's just a huge waste of money and time.
Now here I am, trying to take my life back again and may be able to have a normal fulfilling relationship with a normal girl, which doesn't happen since I was 26.
Please help, any recommendation would help - please support me during this journey - I will try to journal as much as I can
I'm fucked up - I'm 34 and porn is ruining my life in a bad way. No motivation, no clear mind, no energy to start my life again.
I have been trying rebooting over pretty long amount of time, going though a long phase of flatline. I have done 3/4 months without porn or masturbation, but not feeling anything. The frustration for my condition and the feeling of being a bad person is leading me also to give up my social life, also because I'm pretty good looking and I'm scared to be approached by girls and then ignore them because of my condition of being total impotent and being totally in a NO libido state.
This is again my DAY 1: I did PMO twice today because I was feeling depressed, I reactivated all my block sites and hope and believe I can go through this and heal once for all. I have been struggling with erections and libido in the last 4/5 years.
Sometimes I have been able to reboot, but then as I feel horny again and something frustrates me, I go back to porn to release tension and anxiety, and that brings me back again where I was and I need to spend other 3/4/5 months before feeling something again.
I have tried any type of things: being motivated, going to the gym, improve my diet, getting supplements and pills, doing acupuncture to boost my libido - it's just a huge waste of money and time.
Now here I am, trying to take my life back again and may be able to have a normal fulfilling relationship with a normal girl, which doesn't happen since I was 26.
Please help, any recommendation would help - please support me during this journey - I will try to journal as much as I can