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After a relapse a little two weeks ago it's been downhill sense then. Have had at least 4 PMO sessions in the last week. I got the high and could not stop. I started looking at something, I dont even remember what it was, and I was off. Started looking at videos and unable to MO at that time. I became obsessed with finding those same videos and PMO to them. Now I got those images and feelings racing in my head.
Honestly, at the moment I don't feel like I should. I am not as disappointed in myself as I think I should be. I don't think I have reached the bottom of the pit that usually makes me stop.
Good news is that even though I don't feel that bad, I am here! I do want to stop and hope by posting it will encourage me to recommit to the process. It is amazing how you can have two completely different thoughts and desires at the same time. I do want to stop before I hit the pit.
I was doing well and now not so much. This is not the life I want....I must stop.
Honestly, at the moment I don't feel like I should. I am not as disappointed in myself as I think I should be. I don't think I have reached the bottom of the pit that usually makes me stop.
Good news is that even though I don't feel that bad, I am here! I do want to stop and hope by posting it will encourage me to recommit to the process. It is amazing how you can have two completely different thoughts and desires at the same time. I do want to stop before I hit the pit.
I was doing well and now not so much. This is not the life I want....I must stop.