Hi guys, gonna make this first post fairly quick as I have work in the morning. I've been having bad luck with P recently, caving into cravings, just about keeping myself from full on binging.
The purpose of this journal is to re-inforce the importance of getting clean, and explore some new methods of doing so. Ways of avoiding porn and ways of removing temptation and forgetting cravings.
I intend to start documenting the cause of relapses, and the boons that aid successes.
Today was strange. I finished a 74 hour week today. Came home and had cravings as per usual. Had a bath and got a bit carried away with myself, but stopped. When I got out I reached for the phone and went to my usual P sites. I was just about to start when I got a tinder message from a woman who wanted casual sex. Very atypical. I started a tinder account for casual sex, figuring anything new that puts me out of my comfort zone is worth trying at least once. Let me know if I'm deluded. Long story short, she agreed to meet me in my car. I was all ready to go, she said she was getting ready. 45 minutes passed and still no answer, so I finished my P session by just thinking about her instead. Not sure what to make of it, but I know it's not really healthy for me.
I intend to go hard mode, abstinence where possible. Share with me what works, what doesn't. I'll write more soon, go into some more detail.
I want to quit porn because doing so would make my life better. Binging makes me feel immeasurably worse.
Love and Strength
-Prom
The purpose of this journal is to re-inforce the importance of getting clean, and explore some new methods of doing so. Ways of avoiding porn and ways of removing temptation and forgetting cravings.
I intend to start documenting the cause of relapses, and the boons that aid successes.
Today was strange. I finished a 74 hour week today. Came home and had cravings as per usual. Had a bath and got a bit carried away with myself, but stopped. When I got out I reached for the phone and went to my usual P sites. I was just about to start when I got a tinder message from a woman who wanted casual sex. Very atypical. I started a tinder account for casual sex, figuring anything new that puts me out of my comfort zone is worth trying at least once. Let me know if I'm deluded. Long story short, she agreed to meet me in my car. I was all ready to go, she said she was getting ready. 45 minutes passed and still no answer, so I finished my P session by just thinking about her instead. Not sure what to make of it, but I know it's not really healthy for me.
I intend to go hard mode, abstinence where possible. Share with me what works, what doesn't. I'll write more soon, go into some more detail.
I want to quit porn because doing so would make my life better. Binging makes me feel immeasurably worse.
Love and Strength
-Prom