I am a 28 year old male who has had increasing issues with DE and weak libido.
I have had an issue with DE from the beginning of my marriage (3 years currently), but never thought it had anything to do with my PMO habits. Then, over the last few months it has been nearly impossible to finish during PIV sex. Also, I had noticed it was increasingly difficult to get aroused, which I know hurts my wife's feelings even though I insist it isn't her fault. I find her very attractive, but over time my ability to get aroused has worsened.
Then during my usual lying to myself "I will only look for a minute, wtf it has been 2 hours", I ended up on some porn tumblr where all the gifs had captions under them and the general theme was about giving in to porn addiction. One of them said something about masturbating to impotence. This scared me, that couldn't be real, right?!
Google led me to a NYmag article called He's Just Not That Into Anyone. One of the guys stories sounded just like me and I freaked out. Then I found the Reboot Nation youtube videos, read a ton on YBOP, and decided to make a post on here.
In hindsight it all seems soo clear now and I can't believe I did this to myself. I should have known something was wrong when having sex with a real women was difficult but I could just sit down to look at porn and be ready to go. Also, the gym I go to is full of attractive women who seem to think yogapants/shorts are required uniform and I haven't had any reaction. My mind says, oh she is pretty hot but nothing is going on downstairs.
I am just very happy that I found this information before I did any more damage to my mind. I started on internet porn at around 13. I have tried to stop many times in the past and failed. The longest being before I got married. I think I made it 2+ months and after that failure, I don't think I ever got more than a week. I really wanted to quit watching porn because after PMO I would feel really bad and the guilt of lying to my wife is the worst part, but my resolution to quit would fade away when I was home alone with the computer. When I think back, I can see how bad it is because the reason I was on the tumblr gifs site was so I could justify saying I hadn't "watched" any porn if she asked. Pathetic.
My goal is to no PMO from now on in hopes that I can get rid of my DE and strengthen my libido. I really want to be able to have a healthy sexual relationship with my wife.
Today is day 4.
I have had an issue with DE from the beginning of my marriage (3 years currently), but never thought it had anything to do with my PMO habits. Then, over the last few months it has been nearly impossible to finish during PIV sex. Also, I had noticed it was increasingly difficult to get aroused, which I know hurts my wife's feelings even though I insist it isn't her fault. I find her very attractive, but over time my ability to get aroused has worsened.
Then during my usual lying to myself "I will only look for a minute, wtf it has been 2 hours", I ended up on some porn tumblr where all the gifs had captions under them and the general theme was about giving in to porn addiction. One of them said something about masturbating to impotence. This scared me, that couldn't be real, right?!
Google led me to a NYmag article called He's Just Not That Into Anyone. One of the guys stories sounded just like me and I freaked out. Then I found the Reboot Nation youtube videos, read a ton on YBOP, and decided to make a post on here.
In hindsight it all seems soo clear now and I can't believe I did this to myself. I should have known something was wrong when having sex with a real women was difficult but I could just sit down to look at porn and be ready to go. Also, the gym I go to is full of attractive women who seem to think yogapants/shorts are required uniform and I haven't had any reaction. My mind says, oh she is pretty hot but nothing is going on downstairs.
I am just very happy that I found this information before I did any more damage to my mind. I started on internet porn at around 13. I have tried to stop many times in the past and failed. The longest being before I got married. I think I made it 2+ months and after that failure, I don't think I ever got more than a week. I really wanted to quit watching porn because after PMO I would feel really bad and the guilt of lying to my wife is the worst part, but my resolution to quit would fade away when I was home alone with the computer. When I think back, I can see how bad it is because the reason I was on the tumblr gifs site was so I could justify saying I hadn't "watched" any porn if she asked. Pathetic.
My goal is to no PMO from now on in hopes that I can get rid of my DE and strengthen my libido. I really want to be able to have a healthy sexual relationship with my wife.
Today is day 4.