I?m 45, gay, successful (by most measures of the word), in a relationship and completely unhappy with my life right now. The one thing I know I can and need to fix is my porn addiction. For multiple reasons, once that happens I believe everything else will begin to fall into line.
My PMO addiction completely dovetails with high speed internet, as advertised. I've spent hundreds of dollars on porn and Internet access. Oh, and there is the PIED, too. The worst part is the hundreds of days of my life I've wasted. My life and emotional health and growth have been set back years because of this addiction and I didn't even realize it consciously until now.
Though I do have considerable regret because I didn't do this ten years ago and free myself to learn, grow and become the man I want to be, I'm not beating myself up about it too much, because I believe it's never too late.
For me this is about way more than just the behavior. Hopefully this journey will come full circle to help me understand myself, my feelings, my anxieties and lead me towards better ways to cope, better relationships with my family, friends and my partner.
Thanks for reading.
My PMO addiction completely dovetails with high speed internet, as advertised. I've spent hundreds of dollars on porn and Internet access. Oh, and there is the PIED, too. The worst part is the hundreds of days of my life I've wasted. My life and emotional health and growth have been set back years because of this addiction and I didn't even realize it consciously until now.
Though I do have considerable regret because I didn't do this ten years ago and free myself to learn, grow and become the man I want to be, I'm not beating myself up about it too much, because I believe it's never too late.
For me this is about way more than just the behavior. Hopefully this journey will come full circle to help me understand myself, my feelings, my anxieties and lead me towards better ways to cope, better relationships with my family, friends and my partner.
Thanks for reading.
