I guess I should tell my story.
I did not get into internet porn until a bit later in life. I'm 38 now and started masturbating when I was around 13 or 14. I have some vivid memories of discovering pornographic video tapes discarded by the side of the road while walking home form school. Id watch then feel guilty then throw them away. I usually masturbated without porn though a house my family rented had a stack of magazines the previous tenant left, which I used though I later threw them away. I grew up in a religious home so I did not have sex while in high school nor when I went away to college as it was a Christian one with some strict rules. I lived overseas for around 7 years then moved back to the US. I got tired of waiting and got into a sexual relationship. When I was with her things were generally fine but after we broke up I noticed that i had difficulty when with other girls. Later I was in a long distance relationship and became engaged and when we saw each other we would have sex. After we broke up and I called of the engagement I started using internet porn pretty regularly though I had been using it on and off since 2002. It became something I'd turn to after a difficult day, or when stressed and usually indulged twice a day, once in the morning and once at night. I would watch a clip and edge then back down, watch a clip and edge and then back down until finally orgasming. As I got older I started to notice that my erections weren't as full and i couldn't maintain them. I blew an opportunity with a beautiful woman when I couldn't even get hard. This threw me for a major loop and caused a lot of anxiety.
I haven't had sex or tried since that time about 4 years ago. Now I have a great relationship and am engaged to be married in July though my fiancee and I are not sexually active due to our religious convictions (which can be incredibly difficult at times lol). I probably have PIED, in fact I'm 100% sure I do, but I will be seeing my doctor very soon for a check up. I rarely achieve an erection though since I've been trying to do the reboot I've noticed my morning erections have returned but not strongly. I have had times where I would give up PMO for awhile then fall back into it. A few months ago I discovered YBOP and realized I needed to do something about it beyond just reading because I want to break the cycle and be able to please my wife once we're married, so I've joined the forums. Im hoping that my my sharing here will help keep me committed to the process of recovery and I hope that when July rolls around Ill have made a noticeable recovery. I'm 38 years old, in generally good health, no major issues except slightly high cholesteral and hope that this will work. Its time to stop the PMO and its time to leave porn behind once and for all.
I did not get into internet porn until a bit later in life. I'm 38 now and started masturbating when I was around 13 or 14. I have some vivid memories of discovering pornographic video tapes discarded by the side of the road while walking home form school. Id watch then feel guilty then throw them away. I usually masturbated without porn though a house my family rented had a stack of magazines the previous tenant left, which I used though I later threw them away. I grew up in a religious home so I did not have sex while in high school nor when I went away to college as it was a Christian one with some strict rules. I lived overseas for around 7 years then moved back to the US. I got tired of waiting and got into a sexual relationship. When I was with her things were generally fine but after we broke up I noticed that i had difficulty when with other girls. Later I was in a long distance relationship and became engaged and when we saw each other we would have sex. After we broke up and I called of the engagement I started using internet porn pretty regularly though I had been using it on and off since 2002. It became something I'd turn to after a difficult day, or when stressed and usually indulged twice a day, once in the morning and once at night. I would watch a clip and edge then back down, watch a clip and edge and then back down until finally orgasming. As I got older I started to notice that my erections weren't as full and i couldn't maintain them. I blew an opportunity with a beautiful woman when I couldn't even get hard. This threw me for a major loop and caused a lot of anxiety.
I haven't had sex or tried since that time about 4 years ago. Now I have a great relationship and am engaged to be married in July though my fiancee and I are not sexually active due to our religious convictions (which can be incredibly difficult at times lol). I probably have PIED, in fact I'm 100% sure I do, but I will be seeing my doctor very soon for a check up. I rarely achieve an erection though since I've been trying to do the reboot I've noticed my morning erections have returned but not strongly. I have had times where I would give up PMO for awhile then fall back into it. A few months ago I discovered YBOP and realized I needed to do something about it beyond just reading because I want to break the cycle and be able to please my wife once we're married, so I've joined the forums. Im hoping that my my sharing here will help keep me committed to the process of recovery and I hope that when July rolls around Ill have made a noticeable recovery. I'm 38 years old, in generally good health, no major issues except slightly high cholesteral and hope that this will work. Its time to stop the PMO and its time to leave porn behind once and for all.