canttugwonttug
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I have had a serious problem with porn since I was about 14. I doubt a week has gone by without me jacking it to porn. I have just ruined a relationship with a great girl due to my lack of ability to get boners. Getting boners for real sex and performance anxiety has been a problem, on and off ever since my first girlfriend at 18. I'm sure that porno is the problem, because when I'm watching the most depraved shit on the internet, I'm rock hard. This is my first serious attempt to cut porn out completely, including facebook, youtube, craigslist and any other sexually stimulating internet crap.
I'm going to attempt to limit myself to wacking off once a week with no porno. Lets say Sundays and see how that works out. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
I intend of posting every day and reporting my progress.
READ THIS WHEN YOU WANT TO START DOWN THE SLIPPERY SLOPE AGAIN.
Here are some of the things porn has brought into my life:
- Living out porn fantasies in real life, e.g. with hookers, which is not legal and through which I've put myself at risk of sexually transmitted diseases multiple times. Waiting for test results after doing something stupid has caused me months of emotional trauma, several times. Other real life porn fantasies aside from hookers were also pursued.
- Ruined relationships (arguably more than once) because I physically couldn't have sex because of ED.
- Escalated to shameful types of porn and had to deny I knew what it was and risked other things. Kept at this for years and years.
- Wasted countless hours of my life, probably running into thousands and thousands of hours where I could have been doing literally anything else that would have been better. Conservatively, 5 hours a week, for 16 years would give me 173 days, nearly half a year of my life looking at porn.
- Developed massive social anxiety and depression to the point where walking into a room of people was like I was being choked around the neck sometimes. After I discovered porn, I basically went from being a fairly okay kid to needing alcohol to function normally in any social situation for most of my adult life. I went through long periods of extreme depression, where the only thing that would make me feel better again was coming home and looking at porn and jacking off (I could almost feel the dopamine running through me).
- Generally over the course of many years been made to feel utterly shameful by the above actions and the untold negative consequences of porn.
Once you set foot back on the slope you are fucked. Progress has been made, but you just can't go anywhere near this stuff.
Porn is the worst thing in your life by far. It needs to go.
I'm going to attempt to limit myself to wacking off once a week with no porno. Lets say Sundays and see how that works out. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
I intend of posting every day and reporting my progress.
READ THIS WHEN YOU WANT TO START DOWN THE SLIPPERY SLOPE AGAIN.
Here are some of the things porn has brought into my life:
- Living out porn fantasies in real life, e.g. with hookers, which is not legal and through which I've put myself at risk of sexually transmitted diseases multiple times. Waiting for test results after doing something stupid has caused me months of emotional trauma, several times. Other real life porn fantasies aside from hookers were also pursued.
- Ruined relationships (arguably more than once) because I physically couldn't have sex because of ED.
- Escalated to shameful types of porn and had to deny I knew what it was and risked other things. Kept at this for years and years.
- Wasted countless hours of my life, probably running into thousands and thousands of hours where I could have been doing literally anything else that would have been better. Conservatively, 5 hours a week, for 16 years would give me 173 days, nearly half a year of my life looking at porn.
- Developed massive social anxiety and depression to the point where walking into a room of people was like I was being choked around the neck sometimes. After I discovered porn, I basically went from being a fairly okay kid to needing alcohol to function normally in any social situation for most of my adult life. I went through long periods of extreme depression, where the only thing that would make me feel better again was coming home and looking at porn and jacking off (I could almost feel the dopamine running through me).
- Generally over the course of many years been made to feel utterly shameful by the above actions and the untold negative consequences of porn.
Once you set foot back on the slope you are fucked. Progress has been made, but you just can't go anywhere near this stuff.
Porn is the worst thing in your life by far. It needs to go.