cure, success and than fail again

[mouchas]

I am trying trying to avoid both porn and fetishes close to one year by now. I have failed many times could only reach 30 days or so without fapping. Last week suddenly an amazing thing happened, I could have small boners with love making fantasies. I liked it so much gave me so much courage. But as soon as a little bit of arousal awakened again porn came back again and nothing left. No senses again.

What can I say? I am like a drug addict, I hate my self so much, lost the earning of one year like a gambler. 

 

[pinkerton]

You are absolutely right. You are like a drug addict. We all are. But that doesn't mean you deserve to be hated. I don't know very much but I know that self hate only fuels the addiction.  You are human. You have as much right to happiness as anyone. Take heart, carry on. We only live once. Or twice and in two hundred years no one will care that any of us were addicted to this crap.

 

[harpoon]

Man 30-days clean is great, and it will stand to you if you pick yourself up and start another streak. What if you fail in another 30-days? Relapsing isnt an excuse to binge. Keep going, your brain chemistry is changing while you reboot, this is not like quitting cigarettes

 

[cinefile77]

Keep at it. Stop the self hate. You're worth the effort you've been putting in. None of this makes you a bad person, it's just what is. 30 days is great. Try and take it a step further. Also try other ways to keep yourself occupied so you're not left with your own thoughts for too long. Idle hands seem to be a big problem for a lot of people.