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chickaboomski
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after reading post after post on here from fellow damaged partners, I think we can all see the common thread of our emotions and the effects it has had on us. Not just self esteem, but all things mental, creating all sorts of disorders that filter through in our physical selves. I think while we are all here to help ourselves and our partners overcome this, support rebooting, etc, I do think it obvious the scars we get to not always heal as quickly as our rebooting partner. And like PTSD after the dust settles and we know they are better, we still can't get our old selves back. Now I am not anywhere near this stage at the moment. I am still waiting for my SO to admit it to me After our first discussion 2 weeks ago. I am not applying pressure, but I know before he did not go to extreme lengths to hide his addiction. He just meremy thought I was to busy and tired to see it. Now, now there is the hiding, the deception, and the frustration I can see building in him. So that said I have a looong ways to go before I am at that of many other partners post reboot. But I am already scared, scared I will not heal, will not trust, will never value myself, or exist like I used to. As the lying begins, I die a little inside knowing the damage he is doing to himself is rippling out to me leaving some sort ofpermanentt eroded gullies that leak out my self worth bit by bit. Now I got to thinking, perhaps just like they need to reboot, perhaps we may need the exact same thing. With as much energy and attention at our own healing as theirs. things like online journals here are great but even if it was more. Like one hour morning and night, we spent on loving ourselves, to forgiving ourselves, tI healing ourselves. I know I'm going to need it already, and i am just beginning. Just wondering outside of therapy what is other partners strategies to heal them selves. In a positive forward moving manner? Thoughts anyone?