DayByDay
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Day 74
Still going strong over here. Been having some increasingly difficult urges due to some extra sensitivity down south. To be honest thought I cant really complain because it feels good. Still resisting the temptation to MO though because I know all I'm really doing is scratching an itch that will return. I need to find a real women to scratch that itch instead.
Anyways I came on here to talk to you guys a little bit about where I am at in this reboot.
Firstly let me start by saying I feel like I've completely moved away from porn. I never have any urge to watch P and I rarely think about it. My strongest urges come from wanting to O but I know that M and O often leads back to P so I really am trying to stay away from it. I am starting to look at more women and I find myself focusing more and more on their personalities as opposed to their looks. I guess I can see this with a few relationships I have developing at the moment, girls who I could probably sleep with, but Im either too nervous to or just dont really see anything coming from it because of the differences in our characters, which is funny because all I wanted to do at the start of this reboot is fuck around. Maybe I am just not capable of being that guy.
So if I've moved away from porn and have a few girls interested why am I still not happy?
Well I guess I still dont feel like I've changed. Okay that's a lie. I cant really sit here and write that because I have changed. I find it easier to talk to people now, I've stopped drooling over porn and I have a little bit more self-belief. But I guess I feel like I'm still missing something. It still feels like I waste the majority of my free time in-front of a computer .... Fuck I cant even do this. Im fed up of moping about shit. Instead I'm gonna show you my goals for the remaining three months of my summer.
Goals:
- Get my bike on the road and get it looking well.
- Put on some muscle mass. This means hitting the gym frequently like I was a few months ago.
- Increase my design skills.
My plan is to basically try and at least do one of the above for two hours a day excluding the gym which will hopefully be 4 times a week. If I can do that then hopefully I wont feel so bad when I relax at night on my computer.
My dad says I am way to hard on myself but I dunno. Recently (past year or two) I've just been driven mad with this desire to succeed. It feels like I should have accomplished so much in my life already if I want to be successful. I basically just end up feeling like I've let myself down all day every day. Basically I just end up feeling dissapointed in myself 24/7. Has anybody every had any feelings like this before ? Please I could really use some advice on this one to make it go away? Maybe there is something I need to do like quit computers or something ?
Still going strong over here. Been having some increasingly difficult urges due to some extra sensitivity down south. To be honest thought I cant really complain because it feels good. Still resisting the temptation to MO though because I know all I'm really doing is scratching an itch that will return. I need to find a real women to scratch that itch instead.
Anyways I came on here to talk to you guys a little bit about where I am at in this reboot.
Firstly let me start by saying I feel like I've completely moved away from porn. I never have any urge to watch P and I rarely think about it. My strongest urges come from wanting to O but I know that M and O often leads back to P so I really am trying to stay away from it. I am starting to look at more women and I find myself focusing more and more on their personalities as opposed to their looks. I guess I can see this with a few relationships I have developing at the moment, girls who I could probably sleep with, but Im either too nervous to or just dont really see anything coming from it because of the differences in our characters, which is funny because all I wanted to do at the start of this reboot is fuck around. Maybe I am just not capable of being that guy.
So if I've moved away from porn and have a few girls interested why am I still not happy?
Well I guess I still dont feel like I've changed. Okay that's a lie. I cant really sit here and write that because I have changed. I find it easier to talk to people now, I've stopped drooling over porn and I have a little bit more self-belief. But I guess I feel like I'm still missing something. It still feels like I waste the majority of my free time in-front of a computer .... Fuck I cant even do this. Im fed up of moping about shit. Instead I'm gonna show you my goals for the remaining three months of my summer.
Goals:
- Get my bike on the road and get it looking well.
- Put on some muscle mass. This means hitting the gym frequently like I was a few months ago.
- Increase my design skills.
My plan is to basically try and at least do one of the above for two hours a day excluding the gym which will hopefully be 4 times a week. If I can do that then hopefully I wont feel so bad when I relax at night on my computer.
My dad says I am way to hard on myself but I dunno. Recently (past year or two) I've just been driven mad with this desire to succeed. It feels like I should have accomplished so much in my life already if I want to be successful. I basically just end up feeling like I've let myself down all day every day. Basically I just end up feeling dissapointed in myself 24/7. Has anybody every had any feelings like this before ? Please I could really use some advice on this one to make it go away? Maybe there is something I need to do like quit computers or something ?