? THE KING ? Daily Journal

[THE KING]

relapsed on day 44....i dont even know why like i litterly just had sex with a chick and then a hour later i pmod..i still woke up with morning wood tho...but it wasnt even worth it :/....the mind can be soo deciving...ive recently been breaking out on my face so i thought that ohhh mabye this is because i havent mb in soo long so i mb.....i feel so dumb for ruining my streak but im starting again from 0.....right now i am trying to fight the chaser effect.....and i also feel like i mb because i just got tired of fucking...like its soo easy to mb and takes way less energy than a 30 min fuck lol but ima stay strong and fight the urges.....me and my brain are in a love hate relationship right now.

 

[Catch a Body]

I know how you feel man. Take it one day at a time is all we can do.

 

[THE KING]

fuck relapsed on day 9... i need to stay focused....i cant lie tho its diffrent when i watch porn im not turned on that much i have to think about me fucking a chick...i had sex a few days ago and even tho i relapsed i still get hard with chicks but its starting to get a lower precentage every time i watch porn after that relapse so now i think i might get on a streak again...its not like i used to do...i used to have a urge to mb but now i just do it to do it..i dont get that same feeling from when i used to mb it just isnt the same anymore theres not as much pleasure as i thought it would be.

 

[Stretchcomic]

Hey man, don't let this relapse get the best of you. Consider the main positive: you can get hard enough to actually sleep with a woman. I'm only 19 and am working my way back from PIED (full-time) and I can tell you a relapse doesn't have to be the end of the world!

The part about mb'ing just to do it seems like a tell-tale sign of addiction, bro. Don't let it get even further out of hand by binging and accepting that as your fate; try to stay away from it as best you can and realize that the first two weeks after a relapse are often the most difficult before leading into a flatline. Good luck man, the Nation is pulling for you!

-SC