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Rcubed85
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It took me a while to be okay with the title- having to admit to the need to start fresh- and to the fact that 30 is just months away. Regardless of how difficult it is, this is what I need to do. Although I haven't suffered as many consequences from my porn usage as others on here have, I know it is just a matter of time until I do- and I want to turn my habits around before they catch up with me. I'm tired of living in a fog- a life dictated by when i'll be alone with my computer, how many things I can put off to feed my habit, etc. I'm tired of my brain telling me one thing when I know I should bee doing another, and i'm tired of not admitting that I could be doing better. My brain often plays it off as 'no big deal', and even the few time when I have approached some close guy friends about the worry that this might be an addiction, they respond with the bewildered look of ME being the normal one because I watch porn.
I'm not going to pretend like this is easy. I have been telling myself to stop- but then before I know it a few months have passed and i'm right back where I started. I would love to dive into this with all of your support, and in turn I will do my best to support all of you in return. I know that I should jump on every day just to read and comment, so that is going to be one of my first steps.
Thanks to all of you for helping me out. Here I go...
I'm not going to pretend like this is easy. I have been telling myself to stop- but then before I know it a few months have passed and i'm right back where I started. I would love to dive into this with all of your support, and in turn I will do my best to support all of you in return. I know that I should jump on every day just to read and comment, so that is going to be one of my first steps.
Thanks to all of you for helping me out. Here I go...