Helllo all! I have read a lot of posts of youger guys describing their battle against addiction. I am 61 years old and I have been struggling with internet porn for the past 20 years. I suffer from PIED. I came in contact with YBOP, NoFap, and Reboot Nation a few weeks ago through an internet "porn friend" who, of all people, suggested I visit these sites if I wanted to get rid of internet porn addiction. A watched a lot of videos on internet porn addiction and, as I was watching them, I realized that what was being described was exactly what is happening to me. I can only produce enough dopamine to have an erection if I see hardcore, extreme porn on the internet. I am married to a beautiful, hot wife, many years younger than me, but I just can't get it up to make love to her. However, I have no problem having an instant rock-hard erection just by thinking about porn sites. This is killing me and our relationship is suffering. I started a zero PMO marathon on April 1, 2015. It lasted 11 days and yesterday I succumbed to the intense craving for porn and, as a result, I spent hours watching porn and finally masturbated to it. Immediately after orgasm, I felt terrible. I prayed to God to give me strength and decided to start over. Today is my first day of no PMO. AGAIN. I know it will be difficult. I know I will want to look at porn every time I am alone at home or every time I see a beautiful young girl walking at the mall. But I am trying again. With the help of God, today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Tough cookie
- Thread starter Willwin
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Just PMOd. Feeling depressed. Adding a counter was not enough. I failed to prepare for rebooting. I came across some old images in my computer and that triggered my PMO. I just found an excellent post here on the forum:
http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=1256.0
It makes for great reading and contains invaluable advice on the multiple facets of rebooting.
Starting again.
http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=1256.0
It makes for great reading and contains invaluable advice on the multiple facets of rebooting.
Starting again.
sodonewithit
Active Member
Does your wife know or have suspicious of the ED issue? I found that when I came clean to her I never had a reset, I don't know why it seemed so powerful but it did the trick.
You might want to explore blocking programs,K9 seems to be popular but I've not needed these after telling the wife.
Did you delete these files? When I decided I was done I tossed everything from my computer to literature and playboys that my wife had bought me for Christmas. Wish I didn't have to toss those but I came tonthe conclusion that weakness was easier to avoid if nothing was around.
I still look at the girls, we are all red blooded men and they are nice to watch but beyond that is a no. I've decided to approach this with a attitude of no surrender and so far it's been good.
Don't beat yourself up for it though, there's no point.
You might want to explore blocking programs,K9 seems to be popular but I've not needed these after telling the wife.
Did you delete these files? When I decided I was done I tossed everything from my computer to literature and playboys that my wife had bought me for Christmas. Wish I didn't have to toss those but I came tonthe conclusion that weakness was easier to avoid if nothing was around.
I still look at the girls, we are all red blooded men and they are nice to watch but beyond that is a no. I've decided to approach this with a attitude of no surrender and so far it's been good.
Don't beat yourself up for it though, there's no point.
N
notgivinup
Guest
Hi Willwin....glad you are here.
this can be beat. you can do this.
i think sodonewithit has some great points. You will have to decide...but he makes some great points.
I am married....20 years....and I put my wife through the wringer and back. It's been in opening up to her and being gut-wrenching honest that the most healing has come.
We are here for you....and you can be honest here..that's for sure.
I'm glad you are here and glad you are on this journey.
NGU
pmo is NOT an option
this can be beat. you can do this.
i think sodonewithit has some great points. You will have to decide...but he makes some great points.
I am married....20 years....and I put my wife through the wringer and back. It's been in opening up to her and being gut-wrenching honest that the most healing has come.
We are here for you....and you can be honest here..that's for sure.
I'm glad you are here and glad you are on this journey.
NGU
pmo is NOT an option