straighteningup
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I've started this before, but never so publicly. I know I need the help and support, so here I stand.
I'm a 34-year-old man, married with four great kids. My family is my life, but it continues to have my attention torn away by an addition to PMO. It's really gotten bad over the years, to the point where it has manifested itself in going further and further into stuff I really don't want to have any part in. Sometimes on work trips, I've gone so far as to explore CL posts and have had a couple of meetups and messed around with a couple of other guys in similar situations. I have to stop this. I want to be the man that I should be for my wife and for my kids. Guys, that's what I've learned about how far our brains can take this in wanting to go further and further into the sketchy and unthinkable.
Yesterday, I went to Confession (a big step for me personally), talked about this, and got the forgiveness I needed from my God and my Church. The priest encouraged me to think about and seriously consider a support group like SA or psychotherapy, and having run across this before, I decided I should probably try to make a stop here first. So this is my support group. Today is Day #2 and I'm in this for the long haul, with the help and support of the others here.
Did I use porn today?
NO
What were my triggers?
Literally just walking around my house is a trigger sometimes right now.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
I took a walk outside. Hugged and kissed my wife.
What am I grateful for today?
My wife and kids. The beautiful weather.
Day counter!
2
I'm a 34-year-old man, married with four great kids. My family is my life, but it continues to have my attention torn away by an addition to PMO. It's really gotten bad over the years, to the point where it has manifested itself in going further and further into stuff I really don't want to have any part in. Sometimes on work trips, I've gone so far as to explore CL posts and have had a couple of meetups and messed around with a couple of other guys in similar situations. I have to stop this. I want to be the man that I should be for my wife and for my kids. Guys, that's what I've learned about how far our brains can take this in wanting to go further and further into the sketchy and unthinkable.
Yesterday, I went to Confession (a big step for me personally), talked about this, and got the forgiveness I needed from my God and my Church. The priest encouraged me to think about and seriously consider a support group like SA or psychotherapy, and having run across this before, I decided I should probably try to make a stop here first. So this is my support group. Today is Day #2 and I'm in this for the long haul, with the help and support of the others here.
Did I use porn today?
NO
What were my triggers?
Literally just walking around my house is a trigger sometimes right now.
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
I took a walk outside. Hugged and kissed my wife.
What am I grateful for today?
My wife and kids. The beautiful weather.
Day counter!
2