I really want to change and put this part of my life in the past where it belongs.
My friend showed me a porn magazine in his tree house when I was like 12 or 13. Some guys in high school went to strip bars and watched pornos, but I didn't join with them. Then, right after I graduated high school we got the internet. Alone one night I searched for something on a search engine (probably lycos back then). I didn't know about clearing the history so I got caught the next day. I didn't look at porn again for the next 5 years. It has been an off again on again struggle for the next 10 years. I abstained for over 2 years, but never really felt like myself. Then, I had some stressful times with my family (I'm married now) and my job and fell back into it in January.
More than anything, I want to live free of this. But about once every 2-3 weeks since mid January I have PMOed.
I will never give up. That's why I'm here - to get my life back.
My friend showed me a porn magazine in his tree house when I was like 12 or 13. Some guys in high school went to strip bars and watched pornos, but I didn't join with them. Then, right after I graduated high school we got the internet. Alone one night I searched for something on a search engine (probably lycos back then). I didn't know about clearing the history so I got caught the next day. I didn't look at porn again for the next 5 years. It has been an off again on again struggle for the next 10 years. I abstained for over 2 years, but never really felt like myself. Then, I had some stressful times with my family (I'm married now) and my job and fell back into it in January.
More than anything, I want to live free of this. But about once every 2-3 weeks since mid January I have PMOed.
I will never give up. That's why I'm here - to get my life back.