Is this bad?? Need feedback.

[Enryce]

So I've been rebooting for about 5 months, 25 YO, PIED sufferer. Anyway, I had some urges to O and I MO'ed to a video but it was of me and another chick. Is this still considered bad? Or should I just stay off completely?

 

[Nautical Nellie]

Hey Enryce,

I am fairly new to this process, but I am fairly confident that any sort of artificial stimulation is bad! I would suggest staying away from any sort of video or picture!

Remember, if it ain't real then no deal!

Keep in mind... just because you may have done something you shouldn't have doesn't mean all progress is lost! You stayed away from it for 5 months! Get back on that horse and take the reins! Keep up the excellent work.

 

[fnatk]

I'm with Nellie here 100%, any kind of artificial stimulation is essentially re-firing those old neural pathways from your porn addiction, the thing that's causing your PIED.

Its an extremely minor setback in your case, I wouldn't really count it as a relapse even. Just keep doing what you've been doing, stay PMO free! And delete the video!

 

[Enryce]

It's a really good video though lol.... But since it's me and one of my ex's I didn't think it would be much of a problem.... I guess I gotta get rid of it then huh?... Man I hate how this shit is controlling my life at the moment.

 

[melancholy king]

artificial stimulation is bad, no matter who's in it, in fact I recall Gabe saying something like you can get PIED from swimsuit magazines.

in any case you get back on that horse and you eat that horse.

 

[Jimmy James]

You need to delete that video (and others that you may have).

 

[fnatk]

Its like deleting your stash of porn. Its part of the process. You've gotta be able to let go of what got you off in the past, does the girl in the video with you know you have this clip?

 

[Enryce]

Yeah it was her idea lol... But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do. Delete it is.

 

[fnatk]

Good man, I know how difficult it can be. I had a few pictures and a video of a girl I used to be with and I was loathe to delete them at the time but I'm glad I did. In my weaker moments I would think things like "Oh that's not porn". Except it pretty much is porn for us addicts. Naked lady on the screen and all those neural pathways will fire up and your brain will go "More, more! We want dopamine, we want dopamine!" until you cave in and watch porn.