The Comedian's Reboot Journal

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TheComedian

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Hi everybody. I've known about porn addiction and pied for a little while now, and knew I needed to do something about my issue. I kept making excuses about why "now" wasn't a good time or I need to wait till "then". I'm done with that, I deserve a better life and breaking free from these porn induced chains will make it that much easier to better myself. I am 21, a virgin, not that any of my friends know that. I have been intimate with women before, I have just never done the deed. Why? Reasons upon reasons upon reasons I could list, but at the center of the issue I think most of my insecurities about sex stem from my pied and my porn addiction. I'm done letting that pull me down. I started my Reboot last Sunday (May 4, 2014) and so far I have not masturbated or watched porn since. I will keep this journal updated with my progress and I guess we shall see how I do. Wish me luck everybody, it feels very good to know I'm not alone.

I will probably add more detail about myself as my journal goes along.

 
noises1990

noises1990

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Hey there man! Welcome to the community! Get as much info as you can about this "issue" to be informed about what you might expect in the future, during your reboot. There is hope bro, stay clean from all the pr0n/s3x filth on the net/media and soon enough you'll see improvements!
Sure, hard days may come upon you during the reboot, but believe me brother, if there's a chance to cure this "plague" hold on to it tightly! Always remember that "stars shine brightest in the darkest night!
Good luck!
 
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TheComedian

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Day six of no porn or masturbation. It still seems to be going well, no intense urges but I have definitely become aware just how much sex there is in the media. I just have to be aware, if I see something I find "sexually attractive" I look away and take deep breaths to clear my mind. TV has been another big one as well, there are a lot of shows and movies I have to avoid because of nudity and sexual content. It may not be hardcore but its porn. So far I don't feel to different though I have noticed I get really grumpy, when normally I am a very kind and gentle person. Also just to add some more detail as I stated before I have pied. I get erections quite frequently but they die down incredibly quick without stimulation and they usually are not full mast, maybe 50% to 75%. I always get erections in the morning as well, "Morning Wood" I guess and those usually stay for longer but once again not full mast. I just wanted to include that information so I could keep track of my improvements (or the opposite) in that department as well as mentally. My ultimate goal being normal arousal from a normal woman without any insane fantasies, as well as consistent full lasting erections without the need for constant stimulation.
 
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TheComedian

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Day seven... Super strong urges today. Had to fight very very hard to not to masturbate. I was watching a movie and an intense sex scene came on. I had to immediately turn it off and go think about something else to take my mind off of it. After a while my urges went away, but at the time my brain was making excuses for why it would be okay even though I knew it would be breaking my reboot! Its interesting how you can trick yourself into stuff like that... but I fought myself and won today. It may only be day seven but I'm going to treat every day as a triumph.
 
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TheComedian

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Day 13, so far so good. I have not watched porn or masturbated still and I'm feeling great! I'm just keeping super positive and focusing on the things I love. I've been playing a lot of music and going on walks, just enjoying myself. I have noticed not really any erections compared to normal which I generally have quite a few per day. I haven't had really any urges now either, which is awesome. I don't know if the lack of urges and no erections could be the start of my flatline but so far I feel really free. Wish me luck for the days to come.
 
noises1990

noises1990

Active Member
Erections will come and go, don't worry about them! Stay strong when the urges kick in, and remember that real women are irreplaceable and can not be substituted with porn. As you said, no erections/urges might indeed be the start of your flatline. Just stay strong and keep on goin!
 
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TheComedian

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Okay... Newest update. It is a sad day, the last two days I had been having insane urges and I acted on them today. I pulled up still images on my phone and masturbated... Boy am I upset with myself, but I am trying to take something positive out of this relapse. I now know how easy it is to relapse and how careful I have to be. I also need to be aware how my brain can trick me, how it will give me any reason or excuse as long as it can get it's fix. It will not happen again... Thank you guys for the support and wish me luck, its hard to start again but I will push on.
 
CrazyGopher

CrazyGopher

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Wish you luck on a new retry, Comedian.

The two week mark is always really tough for me. I recently relapsed around there, too.
 
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