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tom25
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Hi Guys,
I recently lost my girlfriend (3 weeks ago) after 4.5 years. We have been together in distance and saw eachother every 2/3 months.
She lived in Croatia and i Lived in Holland. We even planned to live together from september, so she is so called the love of my life so far. Things are not totally over between us cause there is a big chance we meet up in september to talk things out etc.
During these weeks i am without her i finally realized i have heavy porn addiction since 2008.
It always didnt seem to me as a big deal cause i had my girl, great friends and college going really wel.
But, now when she is gone and told me she lost attraction i realize its all cause of porn.
I lost intimacy with my girl, touches, kisses, passion etc.
It must have been a hell for her to be controlled, and used as a toy, i made her send me pics, and the sex became extremer and she was fine with it, but actually i was degrading her but she done it all out of love. But it became obviosly annoying and crazy. She even admitted we not compatibable in sex anymore because of porn i pre ejaculated 70% of the times we had sex, and it hurts.
Now when i realized all of this i called a rehab center and i got a intake interview on friday, luckily i dont have to go in therapy 24/7 but ill have a weekly convo with a shrink about my recovery for the next half year.
Its my biggest wish to get back with my ex. On sunday i messaged her and told her i have something to confess. Because she deserves the truth. Obviously she didnt feel like calling but promised me that i can call her on her phone when she has time.
The waiting at the moment is really heavy cause i want this of my shoulders.
I really hope she will realize some things and understand that its wasnt my personality that didnt fit her but it was all due to my addiction. I cant wait to recover and be the man in bed and in the relationship itself.
Ill be active on this forum from now on, to learn and get inspiration and motivation.
Since im just here for an hour, are there people out here that got their ex back?
And for all you women and partners who see this, is there any advice you can give me to talk about this with my ex?
Thanks for reading, greets of a heartbroken and shocked guy.
Tom
I recently lost my girlfriend (3 weeks ago) after 4.5 years. We have been together in distance and saw eachother every 2/3 months.
She lived in Croatia and i Lived in Holland. We even planned to live together from september, so she is so called the love of my life so far. Things are not totally over between us cause there is a big chance we meet up in september to talk things out etc.
During these weeks i am without her i finally realized i have heavy porn addiction since 2008.
It always didnt seem to me as a big deal cause i had my girl, great friends and college going really wel.
But, now when she is gone and told me she lost attraction i realize its all cause of porn.
I lost intimacy with my girl, touches, kisses, passion etc.
It must have been a hell for her to be controlled, and used as a toy, i made her send me pics, and the sex became extremer and she was fine with it, but actually i was degrading her but she done it all out of love. But it became obviosly annoying and crazy. She even admitted we not compatibable in sex anymore because of porn i pre ejaculated 70% of the times we had sex, and it hurts.
Now when i realized all of this i called a rehab center and i got a intake interview on friday, luckily i dont have to go in therapy 24/7 but ill have a weekly convo with a shrink about my recovery for the next half year.
Its my biggest wish to get back with my ex. On sunday i messaged her and told her i have something to confess. Because she deserves the truth. Obviously she didnt feel like calling but promised me that i can call her on her phone when she has time.
The waiting at the moment is really heavy cause i want this of my shoulders.
I really hope she will realize some things and understand that its wasnt my personality that didnt fit her but it was all due to my addiction. I cant wait to recover and be the man in bed and in the relationship itself.
Ill be active on this forum from now on, to learn and get inspiration and motivation.
Since im just here for an hour, are there people out here that got their ex back?
And for all you women and partners who see this, is there any advice you can give me to talk about this with my ex?
Thanks for reading, greets of a heartbroken and shocked guy.
Tom