Yeah, I'm not saying that counting your days is a bad thing, I just won't count them until the end of my life and simply wait for things to change. I don't see the point of letting time go by and counting the days. This 90 challenge is, in my opinion, the first step of my "rehabilitation". I want to do it to prove myself that I can do this, but there is one thing that I know for sure and that is that I won't be done after 90 days. It will take me way more time to change things, solve my problems and build my new life style. May be a year. May be more. I don't know. I will just keep in mind that I started kicking porn out of my life around Octobre 2015. I will not hold myself indefinitely too. At some point after this 90 day challenge - I just don't know exactly when - I will allow myself to MO once in a while. I know that it is not a good thing to MO during your 90 day challenge because there's a high chance that it will lead you back into PMO. It happened to me, but I don't think MOing is a bad thing unless you are over doing it or you are not making any efforts to find a real life partner. I will just watch out for not using it in the same mean that I did for porn, as a stress reliever or some kind of way to avoid feeling bad. MO seems a more natural thing to me, but I know it can cause some addiction problems too if it is "used" badly. Anyway, I'm not there yet, but this looks like my long term point of view of this all. For now, I'm still working on doing my 90 challenge, which means no PMO, no MO, no sex and trying the best as I can not looking at any kind of sexual content or be sexually aroused in front of a f*cking screen.
About my edging, I still don't really know if I can control myself. I did it once, but it doesn't mean that it will turn out the same way next time. I must stay focus and not let this happen too often because I'm not out of this yet.
Thanks for reading and commenting, that's appreciated.
Together we can get through this,
Peace