Keep relapsing after 100+ streak

[Anoniem5]

First of all some background information: I am 17 years old who is not sexually active at the moment. The reasons why I think porn has had some bad influence on my life is because I wake up with just weak erections, which wasn't the case before, less random erections during the day and also my sexual desire for real girls has pretty much gone. The only thing that turns me on is porn.

So after some struggles I managed to go without PMO for 100+ days. After that I relapsed once on a depressing evening and after that, I couldn't stop relapsing. This has been going on now for at least a month so i need to start again. But I can't stop myself. Whenever I get turned on someone else takes over my mind saying: do it, it's normal, it's not that bad.

My aim for now is to not PMO untill 2016. If I reach that I would bereally happy. But man.... how do i deal with all these urges??

 

[Pr3c1se]

It's only an urge.  There is no biological reason you need to satisfy that urge to stay healthy.  It's not like, if you don't give in you're doing harm to yourself.  It's much closer to the opposite.

I would remember the shame I felt after watching porn.  It's a shitty feeling once you're done watching.  Remember that feeling BEFORE you want porn... ask yourself do you want to feel like that afterwards?  Obviously not.  Find other hobbies you can do while you're alone at home.  One thing that really helped me was reading books.  It improves your mind, tells a great story, and more importantly occupies your time while you're home alone.

 

[Anoniem5]

It's only an urge.  There is no biological reason you need to satisfy that urge to stay healthy.  It's not like, if you don't give in you're doing harm to yourself.  It's much closer to the opposite.

I would remember the shame I felt after watching porn.  It's a shitty feeling once you're done watching.  Remember that feeling BEFORE you want porn... ask yourself do you want to feel like that afterwards?  Obviously not.  Find other hobbies you can do while you're alone at home.  One thing that really helped me was reading books.  It improves your mind, tells a great story, and more importantly occupies your time while you're home alone.

Thank you for your reply!
Unfortunately, it is not as easy as it seems sometimes for me. I always try to think that giving in is in fact wrong, but I guess I am lacking willpower to dominate my old brain (where the urges come from) to actually listen to myself when I feel turned on.

I think that I am just going to aim for one week without PMO. Then 2 weeks, a months, 2 months and then hope i can make the 3 months. Let's do this

 

[lizardmaster]

Hey Anoniem5!

Yep, I started with 3 days, then 7, then 10, then 14, then, 20, 30, now I count each new week.

Can you recall what happened on that depressing evening that made you relapse?
Can you describe how 100 day streak was like after 50+ days for you?