Hello all,
My name is Dave and I am 46 years old.
I have known I had a porn addiction for several years but everything was working correctly so I didn't see a reason to change.
I recently realized that things were out of control.
This could be a very long story in how I got to this point.
I drive a truck for a living and started using my phone to watch porn. Then it got so I would watch it at home . Then I would rather watch porn and masturbate than have sex with my wife. We haven't had sex in two years now.
I began watching porn just for the purpose of masturbation and more and more into genres that were not what I wanted..I guess like going to increasingly hard drugs if it were that type of addiction.
This has been going on for about 5 years.
I have always had a strong libido and my "little friend" performs without fail..until a year ago.
To keep it up I had to go for the "harder" porn.
I started to watch men in restrooms across the country..not participate although that would probably be the next step, but it was like watching porn for me. But it was live I guess.
So a few months ago my wife and I took a vacation and I couldn't perform. But in the middle of the night while she was sleeping I watched porn and masturbated.
Since then it has been the same story many times.
A few days ago we tried again with the same result. I left the house on the road and easily masturbated to porn that evening.
So I started searching the net and found this site.
That's pretty much how I ended up here and realized what needs to happen.
So my recovery begins. ....
My name is Dave and I am 46 years old.
I have known I had a porn addiction for several years but everything was working correctly so I didn't see a reason to change.
I recently realized that things were out of control.
This could be a very long story in how I got to this point.
I drive a truck for a living and started using my phone to watch porn. Then it got so I would watch it at home . Then I would rather watch porn and masturbate than have sex with my wife. We haven't had sex in two years now.
I began watching porn just for the purpose of masturbation and more and more into genres that were not what I wanted..I guess like going to increasingly hard drugs if it were that type of addiction.
This has been going on for about 5 years.
I have always had a strong libido and my "little friend" performs without fail..until a year ago.
To keep it up I had to go for the "harder" porn.
I started to watch men in restrooms across the country..not participate although that would probably be the next step, but it was like watching porn for me. But it was live I guess.
So a few months ago my wife and I took a vacation and I couldn't perform. But in the middle of the night while she was sleeping I watched porn and masturbated.
Since then it has been the same story many times.
A few days ago we tried again with the same result. I left the house on the road and easily masturbated to porn that evening.
So I started searching the net and found this site.
That's pretty much how I ended up here and realized what needs to happen.
So my recovery begins. ....