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Day 2: The penny finally dropped after 15 plus years, by simply by finding YourBrainOnPorn and watching a few videos. Suddenly, understanding the basics of how and why this addiction (and addictions generally) occurs was like a curtain being drawn back so that sunlight could get through. Suddenly a lot of things made sense. Suddenly I can recognize that 'thought' that pops into my brain; that flash that occurs, that seems to say "what the hell, go on!" Suddenly, I can flick it off and keep going with what I should be doing, or do something else to take my mind off that nasty little flash that has had huge implications. I now know it's no friend of mine and I'm going to fend it off until it disappears. I've got a headache.
Day 3: Had some work to do today that required Googling swimming pools which, without warning, leads to women in bikinis (oh great). Avoided those crappy little flashes and actually got work done...more tomorrow. But still struggled, got away from the computer, walked around in circles in my lounge room then dragged my self outside and went for a walk and had lunch. Back home had a shower. Actually tried to have a wank in the shower but gave up - wasn't working but sort of resigned to the idea that it should be avoided if possible... not sure if that's a good thing or not..(probably is). More headaches and slightly light-headed with a bit of confusion thrown in so I have to keep focused. Obviously in a better position than some poor guys on this forum, so thinking myself lucky.
Day 3: Had some work to do today that required Googling swimming pools which, without warning, leads to women in bikinis (oh great). Avoided those crappy little flashes and actually got work done...more tomorrow. But still struggled, got away from the computer, walked around in circles in my lounge room then dragged my self outside and went for a walk and had lunch. Back home had a shower. Actually tried to have a wank in the shower but gave up - wasn't working but sort of resigned to the idea that it should be avoided if possible... not sure if that's a good thing or not..(probably is). More headaches and slightly light-headed with a bit of confusion thrown in so I have to keep focused. Obviously in a better position than some poor guys on this forum, so thinking myself lucky.
