"Adversity is the diamond dust with which heaven polishes its jewels"

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IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

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MO'ed last night and this morning, down and out. I went to see my girl today, she cheered me up.

On a side note, today is ash Wednesday and also valentines day. Neither of which I celebrate. :^)


I hope you're all doing well today. Please keep working hard. Accomplish anything worthwhile, pay a bill, clean your room, ANYTHING. K BYEEE :))
 
IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

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This week 2 is going particularly rough. I really am having a hard time staying away from P video games, giving them the eye. Im on guard, I have to leave the computer for today. SIGHHhhh. I will escape!
 
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Floink

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Congratulations on getting rid of unnecessary weight. I am going through a similar process right now, because i am going to move into a flat for my own in march. Getting rid of stuff that has somewhat grown onto you without any particular use can be a time consuming and emotional process. But i find it helps a lot. The same goes for online accounts. It took me a long time to finally kill my facebook account, although i did not use it more than two timea a week.  But after doing it, it felt a lot better.

I hope you are doing well!

Floink
 
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NeverEndingBattle

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Hi bro, if you have time, i would recommend you to read season 1 and season 4 in particular. http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=14359.0
I believe that will help you in your battle. ?
 
IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

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Thank you for that, mr. mildly-offensive-nickname.

I might check that out.


MO'ed

Day 1 (again)

I would say..... while I'm making progress, I wish I could fix my mind even faster. My average abstaining point (a couple months ago) was about every 4 days. Now, I notice I stay clean for an average of roughly 6 days. This is probably because of the testosterone peak at 7 days. Days 6-8 are my worst. Once I can clear that again, I'm smooth sailing. I am noticing that my motivation for MO is different. It's almost never because I can't stand the pressure. More like my mind is conning me into it, and by the time I start messing with my body in various ways I notice it too late and I've already given in...

But I must keep trying. Now matter how many times I fall down. This will collapse and I will be victorious!


Might start going back to the gym. I might be able to afford it again with my business soon.

I love you all, Keep going! Never stop. I believe in you.

 
IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

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This entry is an open letter to anyone struggling with Pornography Addiction:

Sadness often comes with healing. It has taken me a couple years to get this far. Some days the craving is still there, but most days it's gone. Every time I think a dirty thought, I try to rip it out of my brain and squash it with my shoe. It's an approach that... feels good after a long while. I certainly feel rewarded for all my hard work.

There's a big lesson I've learned out of all of this. Other people you love might be dealing with some intense baggage. When you give it your all- when you push yourself, you open yourself up to selflessness. That in turn allows you to help carry the heavy weight on others' shoulders.

Stop watching porn.  :)

You really show your love of people when you stop. Everybody benefits when you stop.

There is someone who loves you in this world and there is someone who loves you outside of this world.

Please keep up the hard work.

(pmo mo free)
 
IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

IAdmitItIHaveAProblem

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This is probably my last entry here!

I'm doing very well. I can say I've safely achieved my goals toward a new life. I have been clean from pornography (consciously reading, viewing sexually explicit material. Does not include medical information and art pieces) at least one year, Hard mode is a different animal, but it wasn't my goal to begin with!

I'm still a virgin, and PMO/MO free. Shout-out to all my single guys out there, you guys got it tougher than most! I successfully started my own cleaning business (customers pending hahaha) and I plan on getting married to the woman I love later this year (Hopefully!).

I can safely say that PMO was a barrier against my life goals. In fact, I didn't really have life goals all up through high school and college. This was probably because my mind was constantly being hit with excitement from PMO and video games, and depression from my life circumstances.

My emotional highs and lows are recorded here for other peoples benefit, EVEN IF I got the number of streak-days off a couple times haha. I guess sometimes it felt like longer than it actually was :). I hope you can take something away from this Journal. I don't know, maybe I'll be back just to check on ya ;)

I love you. There are other people who love you. I hope you have positive people in your life. SHOUT-OUT to EVERYONE who contributed to this journal! Floink, Mav, Red, Leir, Mike, Hablablos, Planet Earth, Seeker, KLM5000, PeaceOfMind, and Andante -The Indomitable- almost forgot Achilles Heel! Sorry if I left anyone out (lovethyself)! Peace to everyone who private messaged me asking for tips and encouraging me!
Always keep up the hard work, please. Understand that there is a man in this world who deeply cares about your success... I could be your neighbor and you'd neeeeevvvver know it.

So be wonderful.

With much love.....................

IDONTHAVEAPROBLEM

;D  ;D  ;D

 
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klm5000

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Thank you for your journal and for your final post! I am doing quite well at the moment as well. Please continue to stay clean and fill your life with meaningfull things. You can definitely do that!

All the best, regards
 
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anewhope

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keep going bro!
i relate to a lot of your feelings somedays and i am trying to do a journal myself and keep involved with recovery work. its great to see your success recently... we all got battles to win. together on this forum makes us stronger

peace.
 
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Floink

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Hey Admit!

Nice to hear you being so good. I am glad for you! One advice: Never let your guards down, never relax on this special topic!

And thanks for the props, but i guess nofap is a team sport. We're here for each other.

High Five!!

Floink
 
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